I don't think you'll be forgotten but you will lose control of the story. They will make up lies about you and why you killed yourself and you'll never get to set the story straight.

I would rather see you test that love by asking them to pay for the private care that might really help you live the kind of life you want to live. For YOU.

My plans ruined now anyway. Stupid doctor only let me have one dayz supply of beta blickers at a time

Again you are sure you know my mind better than I do.

But once more I think I am thinking something else.

I think you are not as forgettable as you claim.

I'm glad your doctor is as stupid as I am.

Hello Aspieconfusion, I remember when I got a phone call from my son telling that he was going to take his life. He told me I had 30min and he will be gone. Time stopped for me that day. He was on OCD, anxiety, and depression meds. He couldn’t get his mind to shut off. He’s world was crashing and he’s relationship with his mom and I was awful. He was out of control and so was I with him, but at that moment none of it mattered. I wanted my son to live. His brother intervened and I was able to get home and take him to his psychiatrist. When she was told that my son was going to kill himself my son was taken to a hospital where he received treatment to get his mind back. That’s what I encourage you to do. Call anyone and make them take you there. My sons meds were wrong for him and thus cause his trauma. Once in the hospital he was stabilized and received the right combination of meds. It’s been a long road with some set backs yet our son is with us. I want you to be with us. Your reaching out and I applaud you for that. Don’t believe the lies your mind is telling you! You are loved and your life is worth living. I’m praying for you right now that you will go to the hospital. They will help you!

I lost my baby sister to suicide in June of this year. I used to get upset at posts that say "suicide doesn't end the pain, it just gives it to someone else", but now I know how true it is. I'd be a hypocrite to say that you shouldn't be able to end your own suffering, whether emotional or physical, but the pain left on those who love you is something I can't describe. It isn't selfish, but the guilt left to those you leave behind, it's something that will haunt them, I know it haunts me. I applaud you for reaching out, I know it can be difficult. The fact that you are reaching out gives me hope for you. Sending hugs and positive energy.

Gentle hugs, Aspie. I agree so many of the comments above and have seen your support of others who are hurting and losing their strength to keep fighting. The impact you’ve had on us, the generosity you’ve shown us will never be forgotten nor will you. There are so many of us who are struggling without support, without anyone to turn to who find their way here and you have been such a valuable part by being here.

I’ve struggled with thoughts of ending my struggles throughout my life and wondering if the price of living in the pain & darkness I felt was worth it to keep trying or if I could keep on not living life because I would always live in pain both physically and mentally. I had good reasons to continue living before my attempt and after it. But that is a choice only you can make but I implore you to reconsider your choices that are available and continue to reach out for help & support. Whether you believe you will be missed or not, there will still be a hole, a place missing in so many lives where you were and nothing will be able to fill that void, Aspie. So many of us care & so many of want you as part of our lives.

Gentle hugs, Aspie.

No life is without meaning and purpose. Many will miss you, eve. Those who aren’t family. The hardest thing to do is the brave thing and truly I believe we reap what we sow. I survived a suicide attempt, as many people do. And I am so glad that I did. I still have hopeless days. I can’t wrap my mind around things that happened to me but I am glad I am here and so glad I’ve lived long enough to see that my life has purpose, that I am who I choose to be - not who others say I am or how others treat me. I belong in this life. Even a year ago I didn’t believe that. I hope you face your demons. It’s worth it....and trust me I’m still staring at many of mine but I see more than just the demons. There is a big picture and it’s worth learning.