BD, soft purring support and many prayers!

I'm so sorry, BD.

I hope it's like a cell phone, and your batteries are just critically low.

The trick, of course, is finding out what a "charger" is in such a case.

Whatever it is ... I hope you find it soon, and get back to 100% !

BD, sorry ypu're feeling so bad. Hope it's temporary. Gentle support and hugs.

Hugs and support blue...I hope you find what you need.....just a share I dragged myself to the grocery, just ready to go home and this lady comes nearby frantic...her purse is gone, ? stoled, ? someone took the wrong shopping cart....store people standing around looking at each other....well my depressed self jumped ( I use that word loosly) into action, what's the purse look like..ok....I'll look...and yep I found it....I felt like geez...I still have a little oomph left in me...it gave me a lift...temporary but it helped! Hopes you find your oomph that helps you!

Hey Blue it is ok to feel like you do. Finding your way through this is not easy and anger often pops up causing those self-destructive thoughts. What do you like to do? Do you have hobbies? What did you like to do as a kid, ride a bike, fly a kit, go to movies, blow bubbles etc. Try doing something like that and see how you feel. My neighbor is retired and just got a bike again. He did a short bike ride and came back saying wow, he felt just like a kid again. I could not believe how charged up he was about it. wow! He woke up his inner child, he goes everyday now. Could you try something like that?

I know working is important, but are you able to stay off work for a bit? I did not like being off work, but my therapist said I needed to stop running from the trauma and deal with it and I needed to be off work to do that. So I have been off work for more than a year and I have learned to slow down. As much as I don't like it, it has been for the best.

Blue I am sending you my prayers and (((hugs))) so that things start to get better for you soon. Take care

Hugs, Blue. You are precious and valuable, with or without a job. Guess you found out how many people don't want to lose you! Can you tuck that into your pocket and maybe take it out and look at it sometimes?

Loving, safe hug (Blue)

I think I know what you mean, blue. Once I fall into my own version of that shut off state, getting re-started can be harder than pushing a stalled car uphill. I don't even have the power steering to help stay directed. . .

You already hit on the only solution I've found. Getting out and interacting with the outside world is vitally important in fixing it. I make a mighty small package when I fold in on myself.

Gentle support while you find your way, blue.

Fingers crossed. I need a Goldilocks level of job stress to help keep me from being buggy myself--not too much stress, but not no stress at all, just the right amount of good stress from working a job. Not to mention needing the $. So fingers crossed for you, blue, yeah. Big time.