I'm not sure why Lexi is going to rescue, is it because you can't keep her where you are at or if its some other reason, but it is really easy at least in my area to find good dogs for already trained and stuff for free or dang near free. I'm sorry you are losing your friend. I still miss my german shepherd like crazy. He just got too old, and his replacement, well it's still not Briggs so I get it, but don't give up sunshine.

We care. This is a very difficult time, but not a reason to kill yourself. Is going to a hospital in your plan?

Gentle hug sweetie....

I am so very sorry...…

This takes a lot of courage and you are showing her so much love by putting her needs ahead of your own

As firefly wrote if you need to I hope that you'll go to the hospital.... xo

My heart goes out to you, SoulSearcher. I wish I had the ability to give you and Lexi a safe place to stay and heal.

Perhaps this is something trying to give you the time you need with Lexi before you may be parted for a while. Though the situation is so hard and must be a nightmare for you both, please take the opportunity to just be with Lexi while you can. Use being heart to heart and together in this terrible time to absorb all the love, support and companionship between you, so that when you’re separated you can still carry it with you. Your bond with Lexi can’t be broken by separation and in spirit you both will always be together. Only death can truly sever your bonds, so please don’t give up.

I hope with all my heart & soul that you are able to find a safe place for Lexi right now so you can do what is necessary to heal and recover from all of these trials you’re facing that you both don’t deserve. Please take care of yourself and Lexi as best you can right now. Let the bond between you and all the love give you the strength and determination to carry you through the hardships right now, the challenges to come, and guide you towards a future where you & Lexi are safe, protected and together.

Comfort, hugs, hope, and all the luck I can send you & Lexi.

Searcher, I would hunt up a no kill shelter, but also talk to vets who may know of folks who would take Lexi in as a foster child until you can reunite. (My vet knows of some folks who do that as he gives the fosters free care.) My heart is breaking for this terrible situation that has evolved, but you need to push on. I have cats, but if I had a Lexi, I would hit the dog parks and talk to the parent of any dog that Lexi played with, explain that I needed someone to care for her for a month, and would look to repay them for any food costs when you came for her. Searcher, you will find a way through this. Showers of healing and comforting hugs.

Lexi is at a dog daycare that has volunteered to hold on to her while I'm here, even if it's for a few weeks. I'm in the er waiting to be admitted.

Glad you are safe. I like Simpsons suggestion. A vet in my area rescues dogs and one of my bosses was a foster parent for many until they found homes. That’s how I got my pup. Might be able to foster temporarily for you. Hugs lady! Good to hear you are safe.

Glad to hear you are safe and Lexi has a place to go. Hugs.

Searcher congrats. You are in a safe place; Lexi is in a safe place; and you will reunite. Time for a happy dance.

Glad Lexi's taken care of, and glad you took care of you and went to the ER, soulsearcher. You had me there, because I really can't give you one good reason not to kill yourself. I've had one myself since I was 12, so I never argue with anybody else's reason, then. I told my mother I'd been raped repeatedly at 10 and she rejected me instead of offering me comfort. That's plenty reason right there, to have abuse heaped upon abuse by the one person in the world there for you to depend on.

I'm 59 now, and what's happened has been that I have been postponing killing myself since I got that indisputable reason for it 47 years ago. The postponement has been for no big reason that solved all that happened from when I was 10 to 12, that will never be solved.

My postponement has been for no reason at all, but for the little pleasures of the living I couldn't enjoy among the dead. An ice cold glass of tea on a hot summer's day, the feeling of guitar strings under my fingers making a true sound that stirred my ears, seeing a great movie, dumb life stuff like that, nothing major. They just kept adding up, and here I am a postponed suicide 47 years later and counting.

I bought a concert ticket to see Elton John live on his last tour this September, so I'm going to live for that, too. Stuff like that. Wish I had more, wish I had The Answer, but I don't think anybody really does. It's the little things in life that really seem to make life worth living the most. Like loving Lexi.

Sorry if I'm not peer support enough, but I'm really rooting for you, too, and if you can give us an update from in the hospital, we'd be awfully glad to hear how you're doing.

hon if I was in the US I would look after her for you by hook or by crook even if I had to drive 500 miles to get her. I know how losing my little girl would break my heart. I admire how you keep finding solutions to your probs through pretty tough situations. Rest now sweetie and hopefully when you come out you will find a forever home for you and your dear dog. Best of luck.

Just as a point of interest I have lived on a river bank in the past rather than lose my dogs. I'm not recommending it though.