Oh no....you are not worthless, you are a gift from God. Things just seem bad cause it seems like everyone is coming down on you. Why are you afraid of being with your Mom's boyfriend? Has he tried something or said something to upset you or make you feel uncomfortable? Do you have a Dr. that you see or perhaps a support group? You need someone to talk to and to confide in. Please don't hurt yourself any more. Its only a temporary fix to a much deeper problem. Is your sister older than you? Does she know you are a cutter? When you get that urge to cut try to put it off one hour then two hours and then the next day. In 24 hours a lot can change in your life. But if you have a Dr. please call and talk with his nurse or someone there can help you with this. Just remember you are loved!! You are a child of God and he died for you so you could live forever. Please let me know how things are going for you. I am praying for good to come to you.

My sister does not know I'm a cutter she's older than me by two minutes I try to confide in people and I eaither Herpa ignored or they change the subject support groups arnt my thing in person any way I cant handle it I'm just not sure what to do anymore I want to leave

Is the on-line support helping, any?

Sustainable solutions are seldom instant, Ciar. They are made up of a kabazillion picky little details. Be patient with the process. There is allot of trial and error involved.

Continued support while you find what works for you, my unique one.

Please don't hurt yourself.. you are not at fault, this is on your 'dad'... he's not a real dad, real dads would never do anything...ANYTHING to hurt you or anyone else...

Please, don't blame yourself..

I understand the guilt, I was sexually abused as 5 and 13.. I understand guilt.. they stole my power from me, and he stole your power from you..

Your family is in denial, and they are confused... they don't know how to handle stuff, so they blame you.. it's not fair, by no means... but please please please, don't hurt yourself..

You are totally worth everything...

Sorry all this is happening to you, and around you..

Here if you wanna talk. Understand if you don't.

My heart goes out to you. If you're not willing to try face to face support there is online support also. You can find it at this link. http://www.selfmutilatorsanonymous.org/ They have online meetings which can be a start.

Some folks here that struggle with self harm for the same reasons you describe posted about it afterward, as you have, and then the next time posted before and were able to avoid doing it again. It's a recovery process, they say, kind of the way arfie asked about above, how maybe coming here can become a tool for you instead of the knife tool. I don't know. It's great that the link above was shared for you to meet others who do know. In any case, much support to you, Ciar.