Hello hoping. No judgement zone here. Welcome. I’m sorry you are having a difficult time. I hope getting here will help. Hugs

I am so sorry for what you have been going through. I care about you and am never gonna judge you. I am here for you if you need to talk. just message me....

Welcome, sorry about what brought you to us but I am glad you found us. Over time, PTSD has affected my relationships, too. This is one of the few rare places where I've found that not to be a liability, but an asset, because everybody else here can relate to me on that. You're not alone.

I don't have any advice for you, but all I can say is that you're not alone nor judged. I'm going through the same thing, it's a terrible feeling. I feel super depressed a lot of the time. I try to distract myself and go out, even if I have absolutely no motivation to do anything. I feel like my boyfriend doesn't understand either, and my family is very dysfunctional. I isolate myself a lot which damaged many friendships. Maybe try meditating, yoga, calm music, arts, writing, and this website could possibly help. I'm also new and trying this out, but just know this: Recovery takes time, you're not alone, and even though it may not seem like it now, it'll get better. We're survivors.

Hi Hoping. Welcome to DS.

The piece of advice I believe has best served my own recovery is, "Small bytes and long chews." Before I started plying this advice, I kept looking for one-size-fits-all solutions that I could implement in 20 minutes or less. I was a master of unsustainable solutions. The "New Me" lasted about as long as the time I invested in creating the new me. Cleaning up the aftermath of my sweeping reforms became a way of life.

My sustainable recovery started when I began accepting myself the way I am and breaking down my dysfunctions into small, byte-sized pieces and chewing each byte for a long time before attempting to implement.changes. I trust myself to know what needs to be done when the time is right for action.

By the Arf measure, joining this forum to begin building your support network is a nice, byte-sized chew. Chew well and trust yourself to know what to do when the time is right.

I read a book while incarcerated that was a great help to me by Roy Masters.
The name of the book was "How your mind can keep you well"
Roy has a website called FHU.org
The foundation for human understanding

Hello and welcome, you sound perfectly normal to the rest of us on here :). You won't be judged here as we are all in the same boat somewhat..dysfunctional families spouses that judge ( just left that one) etc and PTSD and feeling alone

Thanks for joining us

Hi everyone. Thank you so much for the supportive comments. I can tell that it really comes from a place of understanding. Thank you so much. I wasn't expecting this much support. Thank you.

Thank you so much :). & Yes I agree, I'm great at judging myself... I don't really know how to stop though. Anyone any suggestions?

Thank you so much SimpsonsOK. This is good advice. I am sure it won't be a quick process for me either, but I will keep on trying. Hugs

Hi, I am new here! Come from dysfunctional family to! I learned recently horrible things, but also good ones! There is something called competency, and it called also " self love deficit" . You probably weren't raised the way you should have, didn't get enough tove, time, or something needed. And maybe those problems are reflecting in your family. You gotta build your confidence and knowledge. You have to build yourself from inside and focus on the good things outside. But you have to do it. Force yourself in loving yourself, force yourself to do something you love every day for at least 5 mins, and up to as much time as you have and want, and be with people, don't isolate no matter what. If needed leave your husband, by all means try to invest in marriage so it works out, so your needs are also met, but if it can't be saved than don't torture yourself and those around you. Give yourself a limit - 6 month, a year - in which you will try and make things better for yourself and those around you see what happens.