I’m sorry for your pain and sadness. Are you seeing someone to talk with about this? Are you journaling about this? Both will help to lessen the pain and learn to live with it.

Thanks I am using this website for journaling, I am so ashamed of my situation I can't even see a therapist.

Proudmommy, I am sorry for your situation. There may be free programs in your area. Call your community mental health clinic if you can not afford one. There is also an app called 7 cups which has therapists. Talking to a therapist can help you cope with your feelings. There may also be support groups available to you. I hope you find peace.

Hi Proudmommy. Welcome to the DS PTSD group. Sorry for the situation that brought you here. I understand that you feel ashamed, but please don't let that stop you from seeing a counselor. A professional counselor has 'heard it all' before and should be able to support you in dealing with your anxiety and PTSD completely regardless of how you got them.

I don't know your whole story, but keeping yourself healthy (emotionally and psychologically, too) will only give you better options in the future.

Hugs and prayers.

Proudmommy12, I struggled with shame about seeing a therapist. In my case it wasn't about being a mother, it was about being a guy who was molested as a kid by a pedophile. It wasn't a story that depicted me as a macho Alpha male, which I was trying to be to cover up my shame over having been assaulted sexually as a kid.

Then I found out 4 other kids I knew from elementary school, both male and female, had been sexually assaulted by that same pedophile. Then I realized it wasn't about my manhood, it was about getting better, so I saw a therapist and got no shame from him, just help healing.

Your situation is different, I know, but the shame we have in common and I can say from experience that the feeling is real and yet a therapist can still help. One helped me, and my own mother told me she was ashamed of me when she found out I'd been molested as a kid. A therapist won't shame you, though, trust me. You can get a therapist's help like I did.

You guys are amazing thank you I'm so grateful for this group

Big hug for you PM...…. I to am so sorry for your pain and the shame that you're feeling

There is help for you.... People that want to help aren't there to judge you..... They're there to help you to get to that next good place in your life

Another big hug.....xo

I agree.... therapists are there to help, not shame. They may help you see a path to a better place, step-by-step. Reach out for their guidance and let them know of your hesitation.

Supportive hugs as you take steps towards healing.

Please don't be assumed the first thing I learn in a PTSD group is that no ones trauma is worse, everyone's Trauma is just as bad to them as the other persons is to them. No matter if you've ben shot, a near death experience or just have extremely bad anxiety. its all the same. I could be from child hood. But getting help works. Try one on one teletherapy or if possible join a group. usually they seem to be ladies groups and men's groups from what I've experienced. There is no Judgement in Post Trauma . Working though your trauma will make the nightmare's go away make you have make you productive. Its not about talking about your trauma in group its about gaining and leaning tools so you can deal with them. Also when your find your self felling bad try zin yoga sounds silly but it shows you how to love yourself and how to relax with meditation. class or YouTube at home. I lost my back bone cried daily but with hard work you can be happy and love yourself again.
all the best. no sham in asking for help.

So many replies have already been made. Build a toolbox to be able to cope when the old tapes surface. Many replies to posts share tools they have found that worked for them. Comforting and uplifting hugs.