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My 2nd loved one has COVID-19 now

Community Leadermujicaptsd
mujicaptsd

After yesterday's virtual service using Zoom, I went into start my work week teaching online without a break, but then things went bad related to school today, too.  My best buddy at school was orphaned as a kid and therefore raised by his aunt.  Since I don't have family around, when she moved into a nursing home 4 blocks from school, I took to visiting her on my drive home.  She's a great lady.



Today she tested positive for COVID-19.  My buddy has called me 4 times about her today.  It doesn't just suck that it might kill her, it sucks that we can't hold her hand as she struggles for her life with this at age 94.  She may not die, I know, but if she did, my hospital chaplain's motto is "no one dies alone."  My friend Deb died March 13th and we couldn't even have a memorial service for her.  In my 8 years here I have never written that I have tears in my eyes as I'm writing this, but I literally do look like the emoji below right now.  This is all wrong.


irishwriter
irishwriter
I am so sorry this most dreadful part of this covid pandemic is not so starkly in your life. The news every morning breaks my heart. I have dealt with it by allowing myself to see it, absorb it, cry over it and do my best to get on with my own small life for the most part of the days. It is one good aspect of my complete exhaustion that I can cry easily right now and get the depths of sadness out. I friend's mother died and it is so strange not to have been able to even sympathise let alone be physically at the funeral. I cannot even begin to imagine your grief so soon after the death of your close friend. It is a tough one Muji and I will simply send you some hugs and good thoughts and include you in my daily grieving for those lost right now.
you be safe.
Secouya
Secouya
Muji, I am saddened by your news. I don’t have the right words, just know that I care. We all need support during times like this, know that I and all your friends at DS are here for you. We will pray for a miracle. This pandemic has taken its toll on so many.
silverlight
silverlight
i am so sorry,Muji.
She will be in my prayers,as will you.
May peace wash over you and carry you through.
Alittlelostinside
Alittlelostinside
Hugs im sorry muji.
Ozmum62
Ozmum62
So sorry for your pain Muji. Can understand how difficult it must be, going against everything you believe and want to do. Hoping you can find peace at this time. We're here for you. I'm sure your friend knows how much you care for and love her.
Community LeaderLeo
Leo
Muji, in a nutshell: COmforting puma purrs. It sucks.
Beryl367
Beryl367
So sorry to hear a second loved one is sick. Hoping she pulls through.

Hugs and prayers.
Community Leadermujicaptsd
mujicaptsd
Thanks, everybody, it means a lot for you all to come up alongside me in support here like this. No news yet; when I hear how she's doing I will update.
SimpsonsOK
SimpsonsOK
Muji, I hear your pain. Knowing that you can't be there in person for your older friend sounds so painful. Comforting and consoling hugs.
Community LeaderSunCloudJD
SunCloudJD
Huge hug Muji…. I hope and pray that your friend's aunt makes it through this nasty virus.... There are so many layers to this that are effecting so many … May God bless and heal her.....xo
Community Leadermujicaptsd
mujicaptsd
Yeah, SimpsonsOK, she's got old age dementia now and understands even less than most of us what's going on in this crazy pandemic. So not being able to just go beyond words and simply hold her hand like I would for a little kindergarten kid is surprising me with an amount of grieving frustration I haven't felt in a long time. Thanks, SC, she might pull through. I don't pray she does just for her sake. Selfishly, then I could at least hold her hand then, too, huh?
Bluejay96
Bluejay96
It is incredibly sad how many are suffering alone..... those with covid as well as their loved ones. Will pray for you and all involved with your friend's aunt.
AngelaJo
AngelaJo
Hugs!
shakyinside
shakyinside
How is she doing now muji? Hope you are both doing better.
Community Leadermujicaptsd
mujicaptsd
Here's the update, shaky. 17 more people tested positive for COVID-19 in her nursing home yesterday, so with the 39 already ill that makes 56 in that nursing home alone. One of the 90 year olds died in there yesterday, but I found out to my relief that it wasn't her. She's 94, but she's hanging in there.

Nobody can visit her, of course, but when she was in her ordinary room during the pandemic it was possible to stand outside and wave to her at the window. Now that she's in the ICU she's in a room with no window. I'm hoping that if she's going to pass away we at least get one chance to see her at a window again and wave goodbye. Sigh.
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