ok, one more.

Love Can Build a Bridge

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_pqGOf_V2T4

I'd like to see some more from other people, and I feel like I'm posting too much compared to other people. I don't want to dominate this thread.

I am in search of a better word for it... There is a priceless element to the way I use and create my own music that I would dearly love to share. Hasn't happened yet. Maybe never will.

Me too, so in the meanwhile I share youtube links. :P

I don't know if anybody likes mine, or if I should continue, or just let it go.

I'll just share a couple this morning. not sure if anybody will want to listen or like them.

Sometimes I need very soft and soothing music, when my nerves are jangled, like that first one on this whole thread, and sometimes I need an outlet for emotions, like that Caruso one, or drums. I often look to people as if I have no emotions, but it's because I have to try so hard to control them. People see me as very serious, maybe a bit hostile in attitude. The music helps me safely vent.

Here are some Spanish language ones that are beautiful expressions of emotion that are often lacking in English music:

Marco Antonio Solis - Amor en Silencio (Love in Silence)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eCUm3WpKRnM

Sometimes it's better to just be quiet, and in that silence is Love, when words just would only make things worse, and sometimes we learn more when we are quiet. Sometimes in silence is patience and forgiveness.

Luis Miguel - Te Extranyo (I Miss You)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e9dx-jEnz3A

I miss you, like the night sky would miss the stars,
I miss you, when I walk, when I cry, when I laugh,

oh, how I miss you, in each step that I take, feeling so alone.

I miss you... with your virtues and your errors,

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It's very hard for me to share feelings, especially to miss someone, but I can play this and cry my eyes out. I think it's part of the grief work of PTSD. Truly PTSD music therapy

Maybe in every culture there are songs about missing our mothers. Here is one by Juan Gabriel which has got to be one of the saddest songs I've ever heard. If it might be a trigger for you then don't play it, but it's cathartic for me.

Amor Eterno

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RgKqxLAhRKE

first he dedicates the song to all the mothers, and to the ones way back in the audience.

You are the sadness of my eyes, and the crying in silence for your love. I look at myself in the mirror at my face, ...
I've suffered a lot because of your goodbye, and am always thinking about the past. I prefer to be asleep rather than awake. It hurts me so much that you are not...
How I wish that you were alive...
Eternal Love, and unforgettable, ...
But sooner or later we will be together again, and loving each other.

I've suffered much in your absence ...
and even though my conscience is clear I know I could have done more for you
Dark loneliness is what I have, the same dark loneliness as in a tomb,..
Eternal Love, eternal,..
Loneliness is all I have, and your memories...
anguish, and pain,,


but the italians will not be outdone in this genre.

Senza Mama (without mama) is a classic. I won't translate it, but it's the same idea

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5-L2G509E30

ohhh I didn't realize that Connie Francis' version has a verse that is a translation into English. Good!

My most recent music therapy was with this song on You Tube from Charlie Sexton. He's the guitarist in Bob Dylans' band. I love the verse in which he sneaks up on God on a mountaintop with a stone tablet in one hand and a chisel in the other. Like Moses on Mt. Sinai. Anyway, he then lays the big question on the Almighty: "how come things are so tough down here? How come we all must crawl?"

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7MDutSt-Odw

I posted here, too, that for the first time in many, many years in my recovery now I've had my first good dreams again in the last couple of months, so the chorus of the song that says "I dreamed I was flying/I dreamed I was free" really spoke for me today. Good music therapy.

thanks for sharing both the song and the explanation of what it means to you. I'm listening to it, and just got hit by the lines that follow that quote you did.. He asked why we all must crawl and got an answer that is an old saying.. we've got to learn how to crawl before we learn how to walk, and then run, and then fly.. wow.

hah and that brings me to a segue. I Belive I Can Fly. A friend of mine liked this song, and I was too 'realistic' and down at the time to appreciate it, but he said it was encouraging to him.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LbUpPVOEkdA

All my life music has taken me to "above" the tremor of the day into a different healing and change frequency. Change. Growth. Learning. Beauty. A lightness of being now in my life. At other times it's been other things. Beethoven's 9th symphony, the Chorale. In a cathedral in France, the L'isle de France orchesta and 200 singers. Oh my....

Orchestre National d'le de France

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UbH6KXXPP6w


Beethoven, 9th Symphony, the Chorale, Ode to Joy

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G9EJE1ad36Q

xa1nbowxR , I know the song I Believe I Can Fly. I saw some kids perform it at a school function and it was just right. Inspiring.

Milla, peaking of contexts for music, a cathedral in France would be divine. I went to this year's Christmas Day service at the National Cathedral in Washington, DC and it came close, I suppose, but a cathedral in France would be the ultimate. :-)

Mercy - Dave Matthews Band

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3EFE-L87yzg

Muji, one of the most excellent times of music in my life. It was packed in the cathedral, people brought their kids to hear the music. I found a little bit of a butt rest on the lower part of a pillar and just sat there and closed my eyes. My whole being was filled, me way outside of just my body. I couldn't move. There was no thought, only sound. Yum. And goose bumps, weakness and strength, frequency and perfect tones. (Yum again.) But I bet the National Cathedral in D.C. was cool. I'd take it. LOL. At Christmas. All those beautiful songs. Sound is good. :)

My feelings, I just heard this played on the radio, having to do with our feelings about the Boston Marathon bombing, from people who also experienced 9/11:

Calling All Angels

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IZtNIszHFL4

I haven't seen this movie,, Pay It Forward, but after seeing the origin of the song Calling All Angels, and now this one with clips, I have to see it:

One Voice by Billy Gilman

http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=fvwp&v=2H7dg45Z0Ew&NR=1

Milla, goose bumps from your description of that cathedral moment in France. I think of cathedrals as great spaceships that can carry our spirits high. I'm going to a choral performance this Sunday--I have a friend in the choir. Hoping so soar some more.

xa1nbowxR , keep the songs coming!