Hey sweetie. I'm so sorry about what happened to you. Before I dive in ITS NOT YOUR FAULT!!! I've gone through countless possibilities but I was a kid and he was a much bigger man. This man chose to do it and he knew he was stronger physically (by the sounds of it) there wasn't anything you could do. As much as I hate to say it get that in your head. Get rid of the it's my fault thoughts (I know easier said than done) I held mine in for 6-7 years. It came out last November. I didn't want to tell either but you need to tell someone. Tell your professor you trust. If this kid is in any of your classes you'll spiral out of control and have you depression and anxiety control you. After you talk to your professor they will report it. It's inevitable.
Typically what'll happen is your teacher will ask what happened and you don't need to go into detail if you don't want to. They will then bring you to the main office and have you do another detailed description of what happened. I know you don't want to do it but it'll help you and other victims later on. Again I'm so sorry for what happened. If you wanna just chat hit me up. Hugs.
-Cry

I'm very sorry for what happened to you. I think it is hard for anyone to come forward about sexual assault, but especially hard for men.

Please look at this website which is for men who have suffered sexual abuse. It is called 1in6.org and they have great resources on there, as well as a hotline and chatline.

I am also, so very sorry this has happened to you. I was going to say what DW has said about it being even harder for men to come forward. The resources she has given you are also great. I would suggest you see a professional ASAP. The sooner you start talking about it the faster it will heal.

This was not your fault, you are not less worthy and it does not make you less of a person. You did not need to do anything differently, that person made the choice to injure and violate you. As a good friend here has recently written in another post " its not your shame to bear"

I understand you not wanting to report it. Maybe when you are stronger you will change your mind. Reporting it might make you stronger and give you back your power and control. Only my thoughts on it. There is a lot of support here, keep talking and getting it out.

Another thought I had... you can tell your professor you are depressed - truth. Ask for a referral to a therapist, not a school counselor if its a resource available to you. They cannot report it unless you tell them you want it reported. Patient privacy

let me say how proud i am of you for coming here to talk about this with us. i know it is typing, it feels like talking to me anymore. this had to be very difficult for you to do and it is awesome that you did. you came to a really good place and will be safe here.

grad school can be so tough. i wish you could confide in the one professor, but i also understand how difficult reporting can be.

having space to talk is important. you have my support. i'm grateful to know about the website dw shared. gentle hugs

I'm a guy who was sexually assaulted by a guy, too--twice. In recovery I can say for sure that the sooner you get recovery started with a therapist the sooner those anxiety attacks and other symptoms will subside. If you don't, they become hard wired into the physical brain itself and are no longer just memories in the mind.

So don't worry so much about the other person, think just about yourself and getting trauma treatment from a professional asap. You'll be glad you did in years to come. So sorry this happened to you. I do know how that feels, you're not alone. Much support to you.

Oh no, My heart hurts for you so much!!!! I don't really know good advice for this stuff. But I would focus on doing things that make you happy and try to realize that you are a great person!!!! try to talk to a family or friend that can help. Try not to obsess over the fact that "you're a victim" because in a way you are but you aren't defined by it. And if you are in grad school then you have so much to live for, and try to stay positive and I'm so sorry that this happened. try to focus on the positive life is GREAT!!!!

Hi Hidden. Welcome to the forum. Sorry for what brings you here, but glad you are here. The load is easier to bear when it is shared. Still not easy, but easIER.

Have you tried looking for a rape counselor? In the cities you can often find them in police and emergency room networks. Just wondering. . .

Gentle support while you find what works for you. We are here for you. You are not alone. It is not your fault.

I am sorry to hear about this awful thing that happened to you. That, is a great idea to talk to one of your professors that you are close to. It is okay to let him report it to the authorities. I am a victim of assault and sexual abuse too. What I have learned is; it is okay and you need to get the cops involved. You are protecting yourself plus you are helping getting that person off the streets to protect others from the harm of that person. I felt guilty too, like I could have done something different to prevent it from happening. However that is a lie. You could not have prevented it. The person already had it in their mind to do it. The next thing I learned is that you need to seek counsel from a trusted counselor or adviser. Some one who will encourage and support you, who is willing to listen to you. Find a support group, people who understand and know what you are going through. Because they have been there themselves. It will take time to heal, that is okay! Be patient, take one step at a time. I also suggest praying. Praying helped me feel less stressed, a little more at peace. I know you said you are new in town, but get out and get yourself involved in like a gym or computer class or a church group (college a career)...
You are important, you are worthy and of great value! You have a important role and purpose in life to offer to others. Keep up your good studying and work in college, be willing to help others in need and most of all you are setting a courageous example for others to follow!
God Bless you for being strong and courageous for putting your story out here. We are all here to help you, encourage and support you through, you are not alone!

Thank you to all of you that replied, it has helped a great deal. I spent a long time trying to pretend that nothing happened and that everything was alright hoping that eventually it just would be. Needless to say, that strategy made everything significantly worse. After reading some of your comments I ended up talking with a professor this afternoon. Talking with her alone helped immensely, she was very understanding and supportive. Furthermore, she helped get me in contact with some University resources, which I plan on working with. It seems like I’ve got a lot of work to do to get back to feeling well again, but it seems that I’m now heading in the right direction. Thank you all again, I don’t think I could have done it without all of your help.

The victim is never at fault. It's good to hear you got some resources. Hang in there.

So proud of you for being brave enough to talk to someone about this. The work will be well worth it. Time does wonderful things as well.

I'm glad you took action now and not later and have it worsen. I almost failed my sophomore year because it was impacting me significantly. Anyway I'm so proud of you!!!
-cry