it is a cold winter night (-22 C),and i feel lonely and isolated.
i go back to therapy on the 3rd,and,even though we still have to work on my OCD and my eating disorder,i've decied this is the year to really start opening up about Everything that has happened to me...healing will not come if i do not..
it is scary though,the floodgates,the consequences,but i know i need to go to the places i have avoided for so long.
Sorry I haven't been on DS lately. I fell and broke my right shoulder. Waiting for the last week to see the orthopedic surgeon for my MRI results. I'm right-handed, so I've been trying not to use my shoulder as much as I can. I'll let you know the results, some time after tomorrow. In the meantime, I've been off work for going on almost 2 weeks (I'm on disability, but count on my part-time job...
Im not good enough. I cant meet peoples expectations. Its so difficult for me to face i may never be good enough to cope with holding down a job. Its not a case of being well mentally. Its a case of getting rid of my autism and thats not possible.TWFeel like i should just get rid of myself right now.