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Life upside down

ryverrat
ryverrat

I haven't been on in a while.  But right now I am at a low beyond low.  My husband of 16 yrs assaulted me last month.  Not the first but definitely the last time.  This triggered the F out of my PTSD - nightmares so bad my psych dr doubled my prazosin and ativan.  I'm still hunting for full time work that won't stress me to the point of inpatient.  Working part time but with him out (got a protection from abuse order), I have almost no money.  So I am dealing with mounting bills (including medical from the assault), mental and emotional health in the toilet, and having to ask for charity.  I am getting SNAP and medicaid but nothing else.  I've asked but there's nothing for me.  I started a go fund me just to try to make it to the end of the year.  I never before asked for charity, I gave when I had even little.  I'm still helping friends as I can.  But I feel the world has drop kicked me then stomped me while I'm down.

arfie
arfie
Welcome back, Ryver. It has been a while and you have been missed. Sorry to hear life has been so rough for you. Even more sorry we weren't able to support you through the trials and tribulations. The humble emotional support we gain here won't pay the bills or keep a real-time fist out of your face, but when it comes to support, every little bit helps.

But. . . Today is the first day of the rest of your life. Welcome back.
Community Leadermujicaptsd
mujicaptsd
Ryver, it's so good you're back, but I'm so sorry to hear life has "dropped kicked and stomped" you, as you put it so well. Unfortunately, I recognize that place in life, too. It's taken me 17 years to get back from it. Being abused by a long time spouse shocked me so badly it put me in the hospital for 4 days, then I lost my job and my house and went bankrupt and ended up living with my parents at age 42. It was brutal.

I just paid off a 2009 Hyundai Accent with 100,000 miles on it in October, which got my credit rating back after 17 years. I paid off my new credit card this month. I rent so I don't have a mortgage payment. Gawd, it took forever to get back to breaking even. I've held on to a low paying job now for 6 years, so that did it for me.

So I can say that it does happen that we can patch up our lives eventually, but it has taken so long that I couldn't do it without support from here every day. The road is too long for me to do it alone. Glad you're back with us. Let's take it one day at a time, ok?
LillyPotter
LillyPotter
((((ryver)))) hugging you gently and good you are here with us now. i'm my own sort of mess, words are not coming easily for me? but i'm here and holding you close xo
manamoru
manamoru
hello, i am so sorry for what you are going through. i got divorced twice to abusive husbands. both stole from me and harassed me. i know what it feels like to go through that. Half the battle is to get out and the other half is to take it one step at a time. it might seem it will never get better, but it will. you are not alone. take care.
ryverrat
ryverrat
Thanks everyone. I'm taking things one step at a time. Do you know how to eat an elephant?


Little bits, one at a time and chew well. I'll eventually get that elephant down.
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