I was in no contact with my family for a long time. It was awesome. My family is super dysfuctional, full of misogynists, men that SA women. I hate it.  Basically my mom enabled and tolerated all of this s*it.  I truly hate hanging out with all of them because all anyone talks about is the uncle that we don't see anymore who was arrested for S*xually assaulting a woman in public. When I was in high school he would make creepy and inappropriate comments toward me. When I brought it up to my mother and aunt I was labeled "crazy" and a problem.  He later had to register as a sex offender because it came out he was assaulting one or more women. 

I've been physically beaten by my brother and father.  I'm not sure why I accepted her invitations to family events after all of these years of being in no contact.  I think down deep I h*te them all.  I feel such horrible waves of depression after being around them. They bring up these negative events over and over and over and over. all of this stuff I left behind when I cut them off.  I think the only reason I talk to them is due to financial need, I'm going to be real here. Am I using them, maybe, I don't know.  My brother is desperately clutching on to me to force some type of relationship and he used to physically abuse me.  If I had have chosen to press charges against him he may have a criminal record today and may never have had the career that he did.  He just exudes negative and black energy.  He constantly tries to hug me and keeps insisting on us hanging out and making plans.  Ever since I got my tech degree all he can talk about is how he is going to cash in off of me, that he's got "money coming".  I hate him. He never moved out of my parents' house and got full financial benefit from them, and he obviously is moving on to me.  If he can't just verbally berate me or hit any woman in his vicinity his next move is to get all the cash he can.  I'm only spending time with them because my mom is super old.  I want them gone out of my life.