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I moved to a really nice HUD apartment complex last summer after 15 years at my old home (and I love it here). They have rules here like I needed a note from my doctor to get an AC in my bedroom (which I need), no problem I got a letter from the VA.
Then it took two months for approval, no problem I got the approval last Friday. They said I had to have maintenance install it so I called and they said no problem, I FOLLOW THE RULES so I continued to wait. Wednesday night the dew point was over 70 which is in the health risk level, yesterday was worse and I was sick all day (and had to take valuim to calm me down). I called yesterday and they said that maintenance sets their own schedule and they couldn't tell me when they would come in.
I finally had to go into the office today begging the property manager to do something, I was shaking (and now have taken another valium over something so stupid). I just got a call that they would be here today, but i have to lower myself to begging?.
I told the manager that once the anxiety starts building I can't stop it and it becomes a severe health risk. I said "I dont want you guys to hate me, but if I dont at least no when they are coming I'll stress all weekend long and drive you crazy by Monday" (it's suppose to be cool though).
Why do people think PTSD mean stupid? I know the law and I know that if maintenance isn't done in apartments I have the right to pay someone else to do the job and deduct the cost from my rent. I knwo that I do not have to put up with this. This stress wiull have me sick all day and night today and probably I get the after effects from that tomorrow.
I hate people, people do not understand...I can put the AC in myself in 5 minutes, I have the AC already, it's not like I'm asking for anything, it's my AC. Let me do it I dont care, but why do people have to just keep being so insensitive? I'll never understand why it seems that maintenance does not understand that THEY WORK FOR ME (I had the same problem at the old place). Instead I have to sit here and wait and wait and wait and wait while the pressure builds up. Now it's going to take all I have to keep from blowing up when they show up, if they have even a little attitude with me I'm not sure I can.
I really hate people, if it wasn't for the school my daughter is in and my 85 year old mother needing me I would move to the coast of Maine where my family is from and where I spent much of my life up until I turned 40 (we had a camp on a lake). I really would rather live in a tin can in the woods (a trailer) and have more bear for neighbors than most people I know. Besides my mother, my wife, my daughter, my son and his family I really have no use for people in the physical world (why I spend so much time online).
I would love to be a shut in and never leave my house again
Then it took two months for approval, no problem I got the approval last Friday. They said I had to have maintenance install it so I called and they said no problem, I FOLLOW THE RULES so I continued to wait. Wednesday night the dew point was over 70 which is in the health risk level, yesterday was worse and I was sick all day (and had to take valuim to calm me down). I called yesterday and they said that maintenance sets their own schedule and they couldn't tell me when they would come in.
I finally had to go into the office today begging the property manager to do something, I was shaking (and now have taken another valium over something so stupid). I just got a call that they would be here today, but i have to lower myself to begging?.
I told the manager that once the anxiety starts building I can't stop it and it becomes a severe health risk. I said "I dont want you guys to hate me, but if I dont at least no when they are coming I'll stress all weekend long and drive you crazy by Monday" (it's suppose to be cool though).
Why do people think PTSD mean stupid? I know the law and I know that if maintenance isn't done in apartments I have the right to pay someone else to do the job and deduct the cost from my rent. I knwo that I do not have to put up with this. This stress wiull have me sick all day and night today and probably I get the after effects from that tomorrow.
I hate people, people do not understand...I can put the AC in myself in 5 minutes, I have the AC already, it's not like I'm asking for anything, it's my AC. Let me do it I dont care, but why do people have to just keep being so insensitive? I'll never understand why it seems that maintenance does not understand that THEY WORK FOR ME (I had the same problem at the old place). Instead I have to sit here and wait and wait and wait and wait while the pressure builds up. Now it's going to take all I have to keep from blowing up when they show up, if they have even a little attitude with me I'm not sure I can.
I really hate people, if it wasn't for the school my daughter is in and my 85 year old mother needing me I would move to the coast of Maine where my family is from and where I spent much of my life up until I turned 40 (we had a camp on a lake). I really would rather live in a tin can in the woods (a trailer) and have more bear for neighbors than most people I know. Besides my mother, my wife, my daughter, my son and his family I really have no use for people in the physical world (why I spend so much time online).
I would love to be a shut in and never leave my house again
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I don't really know how to label this but I having a rough week and I can't say it's one thing.... I have a lot on my plate which is nothing new and I try to cope in many positive ways and do but I still have my moments.My kids more so my daughters talk to me about everything which I know it's cause of comfort and we are close.... however I really struggle with the venting about their dad which...
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I did the dumbest thing today. I charged my earbuds, unplugged the block and put the block in my little bag instead of the earbuds. I wasn't happy about that when I got to the gym. What a dummy!
If you know how to install it, why don't you just do it yourself? You waited,, and the VA says you need AC. What are they going to do, take the AC out of the window and put it back in?
I really think your comment about being a hermit is a valid suggestion. They don't seem to care if they drive you nuts. Why are you worried about driving them nuts.
I appreciate the input from both of you, I just hate this assumption because I have an anxiety disorder I must not have intelligence and I really hate how I react to it when it happens...I always end up apologizing and I'm trying to change that.
Every neighbor of mine told me to put it in myself but the rules are the rules and I follow them, I expect that to be a two way street.
Thanx again :)
Just dropping in to tell you I totally get where you're at. And you said it so well.
Been sick with the flu for over a week and have to start packing to move. Oh joy. I am learning finally to confront people who screw up. And I have learned to do it with as little stress to myself as possible. This is after a lifetime of holding it all in.
Am with you on everything you said, Betty and virlaceygo. I just think society has been heading towards the bottom for a long time. There are a few really great people and it may take a long time to run into them, especially in person. I know this group has been about my only source of good companionship for quite a while.
Wish I had something useful to contribute to this but all I can say is "I get it." Cannot remember how many times the past few years I have said "I hate people." Then the hating part was damaging me physically and that was unacceptable.
So can you do that? Pay someone and deduct it from rent? I do not remember. I am about to give up owning a house in a state that I hate to move back to an apartment in...oh yeah (but I think I told you this a couple of weeks ago) to MA.
Anyhow, if you can do that, just do it and be done with it.
BTW, I did not know those of us with PTSD are considered stupid. I have an IQ over 170. Besides, it's been quite a while since I cared what anyone thought about me. It's been too many years of you-know-what caused by other people.
Take care of yourself. You are number one and a supremely talented human being.
But i too hate people and i have found a freedom in accepting it and be totally ok with it. :)
Nothing surprises me anymore about people.
You did follow the rules and then you put it in the way it needed to be put in. You are covered for anything that happens in the future with the ac because maintenance did put it in first. Hurray for your patience!
The important thing is you now have the ac!
You keep venting in a safe place like here to help you continue to be positive with the people you have to deal with.
I know exactly what you mean about a quiet and tranquil place in the woods in Maine. Beautiful country that is!
You know, God had constipation for decades and decades. It built up and built up finally it explode and out came the world. Just kidding, we are people also. For some reason it takes a revolution from time to time to keep the collective on the right track serving the human constitute. There are writings thousands of years old depicting the appropriate way people are supposed to interact. Why it doesnt get past down from generation to generation? I think it has to do with that Tower of Babel thing, the Tower of Babel being the Corporation which is made up of fear and greed.
RICHARD