I went for my Mecical Exam required by my former employers attorneys. Thank you all for you support after I wrote about not doing well with the intake paperwork and how triggering it was.

Update; yesterday the medical office called and wanted me to change my 1:00 PM and come in right away because they had a cancellation. Well normally it probably would be ok, but since my meds are being adjusted, It is not safe for me to drive to far. So I told them I needed to see if Uber could change the pick-up time. We only have a few in my area. So I made it there around 10:30 Am. The medical examiner's office immediately put me in a room and gave me a 700 question exam followed by a 100 puzzles to solve. It took me 3 hours because my focus and concentration are not good with the meds and PTSD. The staff kept asking me if I was done. Then when I finished they rushed me in to see the doctor which was a 4 hour interview. No time for breakfast or lunch. When I got home my hubby wanted dinner and said that the dogs were out of chicken and he needed more.  Still in my jacket, I prepared the chicken and put it in the oven, I was so anxious and shaky that I dropped a hot bowl of corn on the floor. Before eating I put the dog's chicken in the oven for the dogs and per my hubby,s request cut all the chicken (4lbs worth) into 1/2 inch cubes. By the time I finished cleaning it was 1:00 AM.

in addition, I think my male dog broke its toe running fast through the dog door and was limping around and the other my female dog got sick, so I went to bed closer to 3:00 AM and had to get up to teach a Tai Chi rehabilitation class this morning.  I was so anxious when I got up today and the triggering events of yesterday having to relive each of my traumas by going through each one detail by detail is still with me today. I feel sick, I am shaking even after my anxiety meds. I have a zoom movie event I am putting on at 5:30 tonight and at this point don't even want to be around friends. Because My emotions are numb I a trying a coping technique that Muji gave me, but my tension is so strong I feel like cutting. I really need some support. Any would be appreciated.