So I've talked about my father quite a few times on here for those who have read about the past I told you about in other posts. Right now it's super hard because it hurts so much to know that he doesn't believe in me at all he doesn't think i'll succeed in college. Where my mom and him had an agreement that he would pay my college and she would pay my sisters and luckily my mom and I super close and when my dad was messing it up for me she payed for the classes so I wouldn't get dropped. So this is what happened I got a letter from my college saying that there was a payment due and that I was in danger of getting dropped from my classes which this happened last year too So i sent my dad the email and told him it was due, he didn't respond to me at all that day I told him I told him through messenger, by text and told my oldest sister to tell him to look at his text and he responds back to me in an email instead of a text or phone call and he said i don't have enough money as I'm living pay check to pay check and i don't have enough money to pay my morgage because I payed for your school books and my school books did not cost that much we bought them on a cheaper site and really is like don't blame me because of the morgage my school books did not do that, my dad  this year bought a lot of things that was just for him to use. he's always saying he has 0 money to pay for my college but is always able to pay for all of these other things that cost way more than my college so he was going to let my classes drop and he said i can possibly swing one class and to talk to them about student loans and my mom and i are like we don't want me to be signing up for student loans and then it's like i can't pay anything back and we don't want me doing student loans on a community college and so i get a text the next week saying from him hey i sent you an email and i said yeah i know i was to angry to reply back to it and he asked why were you angry and it's like seriously you should know why so i responded like why do you think I've been working my but off in all 3 of my classes and you werejust going to let me drop all them and he told me you never told me you were signing up for any classes and i did i told him before we even signed up in therapy when i brought him to therapy to talk which didn't work for long and then he said well i told you then that i could only pay for one and i'm like thinking if you didn't even think that i told you, you obviously didn't say that cause he only said that after i said i did tell you in therapy and then he said well you should of talked to the people who did student loans in the first place and then i just said whatever i can't even talk to you right now and then that was it and i haven't heard from him since that happened last week and then my mom payed my tuition so i wouldn't get dropped that day we were going to go he called them behind my back talking to them about student loans and then i cleared it up with them being like no we can pay it when we get there today and they said ok and because i didn't want anything interfering with my school anymore I signed a new release form just allowing my mom to talk to them instead and my dad was taken off the listen I hope I did the right thing there but I'm afraid that he's never going to believe in me and that he won't talk to me again and that we won't have a good relationship cause we haven't been close ever i don't know what to do did i do the right thing taking him off the list? Is he ever going to speak to me again after I stood up for myself? This all just really hurt my feelings :(