I'm having some success with using Dialectical Behavioral Therapy (DBT) skills, has anyone else used them? But more than often I feel like I can't access the skills or try them because my anxiety is in the way, my hypervigilance is in the way, panic ensues. I've been prescribed a low dose of valium but I don't feel like it's working and I don't know how to ask for more. My physician doesn't seem to want to prescribe anything more than the lowest dose. I'm really struggling because my hope is that with proper medication I would be able to focus on DBT skills, mindfulness, feeling my feelings, all of that good stuff. Instead, I'm still suffering :/ I want to reach for alcohol because it at least does the trick in the short term, but it won't help me in the long term.
Any words of wisdom or advice?
I have always dealt with severe anxiety. Now we are living in a nightmare and fear is consuming me. I dream fear, if I can sleep at all. My stomach hurts all the time, I shake uncontrollably, I have full blown panic attacks several times a day, and the list goes on and on. It feels like I will never know happiness again.
I feel like my triggers are affecting everything in my life. Spots on the carpet reminds me of the pool of blood on the floor. Black button up shirts remind me of how desperate I was to take mine off becaue I couldn't breathe and help wasn't getting there fast enough. When do the triggers stop seeping into my life and stealing pieces of me? I am undergoing EMDR, and my therapist is a blessing....