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Michael.m
Michael.m

The flashbacks are starting to take a toll on me mentally, I'll either be laying in bed watching a YouTube video and all of a sudden my body tenses up and I feel like a wall hit me and I can picture myself in my car the moment my life came to a standstill the night when my boyfriend died, and the worst flashbacks I get would be looking down into the casket holding the body of my boyfriend, or the one of seeing my roommate as he lay on the ground almost dead and I'm the only one who knows what went on that night. I can't get the images out of my head and some days it feels like the best thing I can do is go and jump off the bridge where I lost the love of my life and just put an end to the terrible memories.

SophieCedar
SophieCedar
Hi Michael, boy can I relate. I'm so sorry to hear this. It makes sense you would be having flashbacks and the feelings you're having, any of us would feel and react the same way. I certainly have flashbacks too. Sending love. Do you have some supportive friends/family? Have you tried any cognitive or DBT therapy? Sending peace and love
Community Leadermujicaptsd
mujicaptsd
I went through 2 divorces over this myself. The only people outside of a therapist's office who ever understood what I meant about flashbacks were the folks here, michael. Otherwise, out in the world folks think it's just like a movie rerun. Not so reliving trauma at all.

Therapy really helped me, when I finally found a therapist who was an actual PTSD therapist and not just a general psychologist. The kind like Pete Walker. I really recommend it.
http://www.pete-walker.com/13StepsManageFlashbacks.htm
Jillsaundars
Jillsaundars
Really sorry to hear your having such intrusive experiences... I'm not sure if I've ever had this

So maybe I just be here

What I will say though is that it gets better with therapy time and support

Seen it in others
arfie
arfie
I have tons of experience in dealing with flashbacks, but none of my flashbacks are attached to losing the love of my life. That strikes my just-a-patient ignorance as highly significant detail, though emphasis on "ignorance." I've never been there. That same ignorance is still wondering if you have looked in to grief workshops and/or support groups.

Reminding myself it is not mine to sort. . .

Continued support while you sort your own, Michael. Flashbacks suck. . . They will, indeed take a toll on body, mind and spirit.
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