Tastes like anxiety spiked with a smudge of fear to me. You're overloaded on adrenaline is my first guess and it can be toxic to the mental and physical sides of us at the same time. In the past what has helped when you've found yourself feeling this way? I'm still in the process of filling my toolbox with things to try for anxiety fear etc. it's a process of trial and error but that describes life in general. Prayers for you to find peace soon. Ask me for help I'm here.

Yup, I am all to familiar with both the exhaustion and those aching lumps I just can't seem to let go of. The worst of ^it^ is that ^it^ be a multi-faceted ^it^. There are so many causes of those feelings that I have to define ^it^ before I know which tool to apply to each go-round of ^it^.

"Acceptance" is my front line tool for defining ^it^. Hate is the most blinding emotion in my personal baggage car, so I focus on calming the hatred as I work to *simply* accept and process the hurt. Putting the word, "Simply" in that phrase was hard for me since there is nothing simple or justy about it, but. . . The simplicity is a goal. A pretty amazing feeling of accomplishment washes over me each time I achieve that goal. Too bad simplicity is not a one-size-fits-all phenom.

Continued support while you find what works for you, Cry. ^It^ is a toughie.

I can relate BIG TIME with the numbness. I lost temp custody of my 3 daughters a few months ago due to my substance abuse issues... (which I am clean now) . Anyway, i think the pain was so much to bare... that I became numb. it might sound really silly of me saying this .. but when i first saw them after like 3 months I recall getting to the park ... and my drive home. Its like i dissociated or something. Instead of crying i had all these anxious feelings... no pain though...Then it became difficult for me to cry ... I still struggle with this. some days i feel I need to cry so badly but no tears come out. Its like I have no more tears left.. and I just go about my life like nothing is wrong ... Numb. Hoping this made sense

I am sorry you have been feeling this way! Have you been able to identify specific things/issues/situations that make you feel like this ? How long has this been going on? Do you have supports beyond your therapist ? I know therapy can be tough sometimes, as the purpose of it is to talk about struggles, which can make us feel worse before we feel better.
I know for me, when anxiety hits, what helps is to objectively think about what is causing the anxiety first, then it is easier to figure out how to cope.
I hope today is a better day! One day at a time

Yes, except that I can't suppress my lump in my throat that leads to tears at school any more. I'm up in front of classrooms with between 20 and 35 people at a time when the lump in my throat and the tears come. It's making me dread the start of classes on Monday. I love what I teach, but I don't like having flashbacks or tears in front of people like that.