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Toughassteele
Toughassteele

Well it keeps coming with everything that's going on with me now my step father the man that has been there since I was 5 is sick to were his heart is at 20%. This man came in to my life and was the dad I didn't have. But also the man that beat me and was very abusive to me my baby sister(his daughter) and my mother. I felt num. I went there today to the hospital to see him because I carry gilt to back and I didn't want this to haunt me.  But how much more can I take I know they say god only gives his strongest soldiers things but is it true.  Please I need a break 

Community Leadermujicaptsd
mujicaptsd
You sure do deserve a break. I know what it's like to be worn down that far. I still love my parents, always did and always will. They were both mentally ill, though, and went at each other weekly, then turned on me week after week all the way until they were both 80 years of age.

I try to live by what you say about God as far as why I got dealt those cards in life. Like the cards you've been dealt with your step dad. Here's hoping for that break that you need. Fingers crossed.
Toughassteele
Toughassteele
Thank you. I know I'm. Not the only one deal with things. But it's like one right after another. My parents are not nice people they both have hurt me growing up like u have said him abusive and my mother virbaly abusive. She never stopped him from hitting us. I still am angry about that. Today I'm taking a day of rest because I have cried all last week been sick and tired in pain and now that so taking a break. Thank you for all you help you brighten my day
arfie
arfie
Yup, I often wish God didn't have so much faith in me. What she/he/it thinks I can handle seems to be wa-a-a-ay more than what I think I can handle. She/he/it doesn't seem to care much about what I actually WANT.

Glad you felt safe to vent it out here, Toughass. Sometimes the venting helps. Gentle support while you work it through.
Toughassteele
Toughassteele
Thanks trying to open up more. It's hard because I worry about what others think alot. That has kept me from doing alot in life. Thank you hugs
looney1
looney1
Its funny how we have mixed feelings when abusive or neglectful parents die. Maybe we are also grieving for what we never had? The love and acceptance and support every child should have. Stay strong toughie, you can do this.
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