There are a number of folks in this group who are C-PTSD who you will be able to get input from

I acquired full on PTSD as an adult (no C-PTSD) but have been re-traumatized twice - which each time has made the original PTSD rebound, so I am pretty familiar the whole loss of 'remission' thing, and the struggle to once again reel symptoms back in.

If you share more of what you need or are dealing with, we will have a bit more to go on to offer you suggestions.

Just know that you are welcome here. You have taken that first step of reaching out, that's how we all got here.

Hope to hear more from you soon.

Letitbe said the things that I was going to say. With these latest traumas I have had symptoms of C-PTSD, determined by cause and circumstanes. I don't claim it right now though. I'm doing my best to stay calm, express myself in writing, not let my harshest self rule me, nor my depressed or cloistered self. I'm seeking middle ground and to hold onto my peace. Not a big goal to some, but it is to us. I'm sending good thoughts your way.

I am CPTSD and it is NO FUN!! I isolated for over six months and did not move nor talk to anyone.
It was only medication that helped me get out of my funk.
Feel free to message me if you want - hang in!!

CPTSD was described to me as a bone which has been broken in the same spot over and over. Typically, the bone itself ends up too shattered to mend. In my case, amputation of the limb was necessary. Prosthetics are the nearest I can expect to full healing. It will never be okay but it is possible to limp my way through a full and rich life.

Works for me.

Hope you find what works for you.
Hugs. Feel better.

I like Arfie's interpretation of CPTSD. It brings everything together easily to understand what CPTSD is like.

Ayup.

My diagnosis is C-PTSD, too.

You're not alone, and ... there's absolutely not a single thing about C-PTSD that I would say is "fun."

But ... we're here, we don't judge, and we pretty much DO understand.

Arfie, I like your description as a "limp." It's perfect. I wil always walk with a limp, but that's okay. I'll be walking somehow. Thank you for a symbolism that I can relate to.

C-PTSD all the way here. Unfortunately I have not been looking into this diagnosis for all that long, so I cant say I have a lot of advice.

Thanks for making me feel not so alone. I'm struggling with the bullheaded notion that I can somehow get to a completely "normal" place where it will be like I was never traumatized. I keep trying to get back to some state of being that I never actually had. I was hurt so young that I don't have anything to go back to...and it's shaped my life completely. And caused me to get traumatized again, and again, and again. I know it in my mind but that realization that I've never had and will never have a ptsd- or cptsd-free life just won't take hold in my bones where it needs to for me to be able to heal. My mind and my emotions just can't connect....and I don't know what to do. I've cut myself off from almost everyone, and those I do see, I put on a show for. I compulsively act happy, and lead this pretend life in front of them. And this sense of utter wrongness, horrific unfairness...it's paralyzing. I can't get past it.

I have never been officially diagnosed with C-PTSD, but I would not be surprised if I have this. As a kid I failed 2 grades and kids can be very cruel. I was called stupid, loser and generally not accepted by the peers of my own age or the peer from the new class I was in. I have always felt like an outsider. In addition we had about 6 kids in town with mini bikes who chased me almost every time I set foot outside the door for about 2 years. My mom kicked me out of the house every weekend so she could clean. I was about 7 and I really thought they were trying to kill me or would run me over. I was terrified and my mom and dad just laughed it off or told me not to worry about it.
I have PTSD from working with battle damaged vehicles and that ended up sending me to the hospital for a 12 day stay in 2011.
The PTSD has definitely stirred up some really bad childhood memories. I can tell you I feel like a loser. I lost my job, I cannot get my emotions in check, I am back in school. I blame myself because I never really learned at a young age how to get along with people. I lack in social skills, don't trust people and don't like letting people get close to me because they will hurt me. I measured my success in life by my job, my job title and my ability to perform at a high level on the job because it was the only thing I could do well. Well I now fail at that too. When I lost my job and got fired, I lost the only good thing I had in my life that showed I was normal, valued and needed. I really hurt. Still does.
Sorry I guess I am rambling.

You are in the right spot for support. And yes certain things will happen in your life that will retrigger you. The trick is to learn when you are triggered and get help.