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Cry
Cry

I've finally decided. While I may have to wait until I'm 18 to go get a proper diagnosis in November this year, I have decided to make 2018 the best as I can make it. I'm trying to change my thoughts from "god this was such a shit day" to "today was a day." While it may sound ridiculous, someone (someone who was dear to me that I never got to meet before he passed on) came to me in a dream and told me to be more gentle on myself. Again it sound fucking stupid, but idk how to describe it. This persons spirit (if any of you guys have grown up with spiritual parents, you might get what I mean) has been with me since December 18....the day I will never forget. It's not exactly easy since everyday has been pretty shitty since his death on the 18. We're also coming around to the one month without him and really none of us (his fans or group members) can really swallow what happened. But I'm working on swallowing his death and in the process trying to be gentler on me, at least until November. Any suggestions on how to make my long trek easier on me? (Did I spell trek right? I'm really tired lol)


-shu

Zuhair
Zuhair
I am sorry for your loss, Cry. It is not stupid at all. Someone has come to me in a dread as well and told me 'I am here for you' on last December 29. I guess it was their spirit which has come to me in a dream. I am glad you have decided to try to make 2018 a happy year.
Community Leadermujicaptsd
mujicaptsd
It helps me to break down future challenges into more bite sized pieces, cry, and to set attainable goals in that future so I maintain hope. So it sounds good to me that you're doing that with your one month anniversary of grief since Dec 18 on the short term, and with November and a diagnosis on the longer term. Then taking a mindfully more gentle approach to self helps with every step of the way. I'm with you about this, my friend.
Cry
Cry
I guess it's not stupid to still be grieving, especially at the one month, but my mom got annoyed that I was still grieving. She said I shouldn't even care because I have never seen him, just watched his mvs. But the truth is, he did help me. During a live on Instagram I said I was really depressed and feeling better watching his live. And he said to just take it easy. That he understood. I felt so much less alone. based his solo songs on his own issues. Which I could relate to. So of course I'm still grieving. But it feels dumb mainly because I've been told it's stupid to grieve someone you never met.
I've also decided on bad days, to write a list of small things I can do, and eventually cross it off. As well as finding a more stable sleeping schedule and eating better.
Shu-
nancy6464
nancy6464
I am so sorry for your loss. It doesn’t sound stupid at all. And grief has no time line. Take the advice of your loved one and be gentle with yourself. And sharing here is a good way to process towards your November goal. Triple hugs Cry
arfie
arfie
If the Star Trek producers spelled it that way, how could it be wrong?

I'm adding my voice to the "Not Stupid" choir. I'll also reach for harmony with the visiting spirit who told you to be gentle with yourself.

Keep sorting and processing Cry. Your answers are in there. We're here for you.
LillyPotter
LillyPotter
not stupid at all, i'm sorry for your loss, shu

gentle hugs

i'm so grateful for the visit and how you are using that to change your outlook and making decisions going forward.

it is the best to hear how you have changed to - today was a day. that is big stuff in my vocabulary changing book. changing how we think words or say them makes a big difference in our days.

starting with small goals is an excellent way to build up victories. everything completed and checked off will add to a good enough - or better feeling.

thank you so much for sharing this with everyone.

hugs ((((((shu))))))
Community LeaderSunCloudJD
SunCloudJD
I'm so sorry for your loss

It's great that you're being gentler with you..... When we start having automatic negative thinking it takes work to break the cycle..... Good for you!!

Big hug......xo
Cry
Cry
I'm only just starting and it's one of the hardest things to do. But...I'm not only doing it for myself, but for him too. He's the one that said being gentle to yourself will save yourself in the long run.
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