Hi Rose
I understand, my emotions & physical health tie together as well. Stress makes my other health problems flare up even more.

Be gentle with yourself, it sounds like you are doing the best you can

Sending you support & gentlest of hugs <3

Rose, I just feel like you are trying hard to accept this new thing as a difference and this is really normal behavior. I am feeling the same static too, the difference is that with me it is my spirit that is overwhelmed. And we are all scattering for cover at present, the whole wide world when it comes right down to the facts is curious and trying to avoid complex feelings of the unknown. I feel for you, dear one.

Sometimes it is best to face-off with those feelings and this way allows yourself to let the feelings flow in spite of it all. Look at the world around us now. People are expressing bad, evil, uncontrolled, and destructive behaviors. Then there are those, such as you, who are just trying to go through in a non-hostile way, all are common expressions because this is really living in the unknown. Our feelings are not the cause of the world falling in. Keep this in mind. And I am certain that your therapy team is thinking clearly about doing what is in your best interest. To be sure, talk plainly and openly with them as often as needed.

Love & hugs to you today. I am so sorry for the clutter of feelings. However, you are coping just fine.

Transitions are hard, rose, what you're going through is normal. Being aware and open about it here like you're doing is really commendable. It makes it seem you are going to go from the former therapist to the newer therapist successfully because you're being mindful of every step along the way.

Shutting your emotions down and then opening them up again as you move from one to another is a survival mechanism I recognize from my own experience when I moved and had to change therapists years ago.

It worked out, and the way it sounds like it's going it will work out for you, too. It's a stressful transition in the process, but it sounds like it will come to a good conclusion like it did for me.

Hi,
Thanks for all you encouraging words. I am trying different things in order not to become too sick because of this virus and I cannot go to the hospital. I really hope that it works in favor for me, The good thing is that my new therapist stated that if it dies not work out with her after awhile I can seek another therapist and she will help in the process. She will be active participant and that is very comfortable to me because my current therapist and I does not know if things will work out for me to continue to see her. If it does not then I have the new therapist for a year or a year plus then have to do this all over again (I really does not want to do this again). This is why I am going through the motion so to speak and only open up a bit. Thinking about it making me want to cry. Sorry later

Rose, it is always a challenge to move to a new therapist. Letting the two talk helps to speed up the process of working with you for the new one. You have shared so much with the old one as trust was built. You have also changed in the process, while the new one meets you in your today. The new one is able to get a better sense of what techniques have worked best for you. It is nice that you have already been given the option to switch again if the new relationship doesn't benefit you. You are not expected to fully open up until the trust bond is built. Hope for the best outcome. Calming hugs.

You made it official, Rose, which is really admirable, yet at the same time that doesn't mean that your feelings can waver as they will. Be good to yourself, it's not a straight line through things like this, a zig zag is perfectly fine.

Big hug for you Rose... I agree transitions are hard...… Good for you for having the courage to move forward.... I wish you well working through this process.....xo

Thanks. My current therapist I saw this morning and she and I spoke. She is expecting me to be super women and just juggle everything and move on. Days like today she frustrated me because she is been herself and she is shock when I decided on certain things but does not offer assistance.

The new therapist we met yesterday and we started paperwork and the process is not easy but she is open minded more than my current therapist has every been.

Overall, my current therapist is expecting a lot from me and I think is because I have seen her for three years and some horrible things had happen and I just keep propelling and now she expect of me which I told her is not fair because I know me more than her and I need help at this time which she could careless. She stated to me today that the new therapist is very nice and seems kind (lol, I wanted to say to her you could have been that way too or did you learn something for her?). I did not say it because my current therapist would not be able to take it and would put on her therapeutic hat and became werid.

The new therapist remains me of the agency that I had before my current therapist and each therapist there was so nice and supportive and teaches me things. every year at that office I would get a new therapist because they were students. And yes my current therapist is a student but the office she works at only sees individuals for 6 months but as long as a year or a year plus.

I do welcome a kind and support therapist and one that is doing treatment plan with me (my current therapist never ever did a treatment plan with me since i met her in 2017) she goes with the flow. I think what I like about the new therapist is that she does treatment plan and from the beginning lay out a foundation for me that my current therapist had never did and still does not do.

So, this process has it good and bads (I add an s to bad because it is bad).But I in away has learned a lot since I started therapy with this current therapy and yes it has been a sweet bitter journey with her. I never had a therapy who my journey was sweet and bitter at the same time( I normally has very very good therapist and one bad apple). So my current therapist is and continue to be a shock to me but I like her because she is honest and is willing to try. And she after a bad sessions stop and try something new. I think I was the weridest and most challenging client that she ever had. She said that she has never worked as hard as she does with me like how she with her other clients. So I give her credit,. I do. I am not a difficult person she said but has a lot that happen in life and too young to had understand and she said clients like me can be hard but I am the werider type ( I smile because I like to be different even though everyone who knows me said that I am).

But, I always tells others who are puzzled about me if everyone was the same this world would be boring and I would not survive it even though I am still trying to survive now. But I am glad that I am on daily strength support group. It is hard but I like that you guys are so cool and supportive. June 17th coming and I have both bitter and sweet taste about it. But let see what happens because with God all things are possible. Anyways, I cannot stay long today online because i have a few online appointments with a few doctors. Thanks for all your support.

You're welcome, Rose. I really like how you write here twice about how recovery therapy is both bitter and sweet at the same time, because that really speaks for me. It don't know if it's because my emotions are mixed up by PTSD or not, but I've never just had one feeling at a time with it. Usually I have two at once, sometimes opposite feelings like that bittersweet feeling you mention. I'm glad to see it's not just me.

Hi Mujicaptsd, So you do understand me. My current therapist always asked me to explain and then asked more question, in which I found out that most of her other clients does not think like me. But it is so cool to know that I am not alone in this world with my thoughts etc and that you experience the same. Now I feel like I am really human, if you understand? My current does not understand that I can have multiply feelings a bout now or other things.