Oh, Lilly, sorry you've got to see the doc this week as well, but glad we can get our jitters out here about it and support each other. Thanks, and peaceful thoughts to you, too, my friend.

Well, tomorrow's the day. I'm going to write down my notes for things to say as the countdown begins. Let me know how yours goes, Lilly.

I never find it easy going to the doctors. I will send you lots of prayers for a relaxing and helpful visit. I know you have a lot to deal with on top of your PTSD, going to the doctor is very vulnerable I find. hugs

Thanks, Musk. Not long now, and the anticipation will be over with. For me lots of times that's the most anxiety-ridden stretch.

how did it go?

Best to you Muji...I too function with one kidney, and share the never ending concerns about ckd...Please post when you are able :) Hugs and Healing!! ml

Lots of support and prayers.

Worrying about you.

me too, mostly thinking that maybe they decided to admit our Muj for more observation or tests - what do you think? i'm going to send the most comforting thoughts and my kind of prayers that he is being treated gently and kindly if that is the case.

maybe he is having a good old chat with the hospital chaplain?? : ) gentle hugs, Muj

I hope it went well. I haven't read all the support yet, but this song came on Muji, so I had to post it fresh.
I have been checking but not posting. No 59 is not that old... me, But your getting there.

Hugs J.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KEXQkrllGbA

Thanks, everybody. Sorry to worry you. After my doctor's appointment I was so exhausted, I just crashed and slept in today, the next day.

I made notes for my appointment like you suggested, and followed through with them. The doc gave me a high dosage of neurontin (gabapentin) so maybe my nerves in my feet won't crackle with pain like they do. That way walking helps keep weight stable and it's just good for the mind to get out and about even just strolling on my cane. Neurontin has side effects like meds always do "if you have suicidal thoughts, blah blah" is always on those prescription labels isn't it? It's almost amusing.

The big good news is that my doctor said my heart is ok. The tightness in my chest has just been stress--another reason I need to go for walks. Fingers crossed that the high dosage of neurontin will calm the nerve damage in my feet.

Good news, too, is that my blood pressure is normal. More good news is that my keeping to my hospital nutritionist's diet has my diabetes stable and my kidney level stable, so I stay on the edge of dialysis but don't need it in the next four months. We'll see again in September about that. I am so relieved!

I still want to see about losing weight, so I had the doc call my kidney doc about getting me into bariatric surgery. My worry about my heart is from carrying too much weight. I'm so glad my heart still is in good shape, I just would like to keep it ok for the long haul.

I'm glad you all helped me muster up the pluck to take my notes in to my doc and ask him all of my questions and even ask him to make that phone call for me. PTSD responses are the 3 F's, fight/fight/freeze, and I tend to freeze at the doctor's office.

It took a lot of energy to maintain and keep to my script to voice everything I needed to say and to ask for, so I was really tired afterward, so that's why you didn't hear from me right away. But I was tired and relieved. Tomorrow I speak at a church, so today I'm trying to recoup my stamina for that.

Thanks for the encouragement that gave me the oomph I needed to take advantage of my doctor's appointment and get everything out of it I could. Your support improves my life, and I'm grateful. That song "Lean on Me" was so sweet.