I posted last night but i guess it never posted for me? Did not have the best experience yesterday. For those who saw my last post, a nurse  when i was in  teh ER last year,and admittedto ICU for 3 weeks, whenialmost didnt pull  thru, told me that my rapist was in prison and it would be 10 years before he could get parole. It was all lies, i found out 9 days ago. Yesterday i was at a medical center here with my mom who had toget her thyroid labs shes has only half a thyroid so they have to watch closely. Well when she got back in the car (we were in the front row) an ambulance came with its lights and siren on and parked not far from us, at the entrance to get someone. I thought the person driving looked like my rapist and when he got out and turned my way, yes it was 100 percent him. I have not seen him in 10 years. i do not THINK he saw me????? But i am not even sure what im feelinlg at this time. I am so shook up and my klonopin is not doing a ton to help but its better than not taking it adn now to find out klonopin odt is  on back order at all pharmacies............ Iwill be out tomorrow and the SOONEST would be Monday that they could get some and it could be a month. I am calling my shrink in the morning. I am so shook up. I was mentally healing the best  i could with my PTSD then that freaking nurse lied tome. Gave me a false sense  of security where i felt so much safer, now its like i been traumatized all over again, and then to run into him?????? i just i keep shaking......I am trying to plan and get ready for my wedding coming up (sorry cant put the date until its over, saftey reasons) but its so hard rightnow!