It does seem that way, doesn't it?

What has partly helped me is realizing it's not about some kind of cosmic balance sheet where "I am good, therefore no bad will happen to me" or "I am bad, therefore no good will happen to me".

Think of it like this. No baby is so bad they're deserving of abuse. No baby. Yet many of us have been born into abusive families. Why us? I don't know. I don't believe I had to be born into that crap to "learn something" on my journey to the next life, etc. I believe that people around me had choices, but once I could make choices ----- I should make better/different ones.

And if bad things still happen (and heaven knows they have).... it's not because I did bad, or am bad. It's life. Good and bad happen. Sometimes in waves, sometimes in ripples.

So.... no, you're not being punished. You're feeling stuck in the wave, maybe?

HUGS

Big hug Rose.... It can seem like that sometimes for sure.... Gratitude daily really helps me with this

I could feel upset about all of the things that went wrong but not think about all of the things that were going well... With daily gratitude I don't lose site of it and it truly helps me

I'm sorry if thing are going wrong today... Another hug.....xo

I believe there is quite allot of proof available that bad things happen to good people and even the luckiest of souls still have pain to endure. That positive attitude is easier some days than others.

Go with the flow, Rose. Taking the time to notice and be grateful for the good things can make the bad days more tolerable.

Rose, you are a wonderful person. Sometimes bad things happen to good people. I try to think of these things as lessons in life and make the best of it. It’s all part of the challenges we face in life. Take a deep breath and think positive thoughts.

I admire you don’t seem to have anger or bitterness but have remained a good person who keeps trying her best. Be proud of that.

Thanks everyone. It has been a rough few days. Today I got no good news from the doctor and now I do not know what to think. I cannot start treatment because one more test (I did 10-15 blood test). She give very little answer but a warning of risk (which is draining me). She is very supportive and gave me her person email to email for anything. Sometimes nothing helps the pain. Tomorrow I am going to take a break

Hey, the Book of Job is all about how bad things happen to good people, rose, and you are one of those good people that book was written for. Never doubt it, I'm so glad I know you.

Thanks Muji. I think I did too much today. Someone took me out and I wasn't able to lay down much and my body is screaming

Tropical I do not really get angry It takes a lot to make me angry. Plus It does not take me much to be happy. I love people and I love to make someone smile. I love to forgive. I know that I do not fight my own battles.

Leo thanks for understanding. Sometimes I do feel stuck.

Arfie, you are so right been grateful helps

Thanks Suncloud. I delay in responding fully because I needed time to think and lay low because so much was thrown on me lately

Secouya , I am trying to and at times needs to just breathe and lay down and rest

Yeah, rose just breathe, like this Ann Nalick song says to. She's helped me to.
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=FcvXr-9XtgA

Thanks Muji. Today I need to just breathe, I have therapy in a few mins. My new therapist is really cool.