Oh I feel your pain and have had this awful night mentally about my weight. I also drive alot for work which makes bringing food hard so can relate to that, and while I tend to eat sandwhich type places still not always the best than had I brought food. I know I can't keep going this way. I also have kids and nothing good will come if this does t stop. Sadly I even know alot about food, even changed alot in hpw we eat but still don't totally stay focused.

Starting is good and I recommend devising a plan. Very simple one you can stick too. Change only a few things. When I re start I always start with water. Then add a few healthier snacks. Some people add exercise right away others that's too much. I honestly don't mind exercise but because food is so hard I decided that a my focus till I drop near 30lb. With exercise there is always ways to just add a little like we swim alot in summer, do some hikes, I park further, etc. So that's what I am doing now.
Well not sure if I helped but I hope.

Make a small change to what you are eating and you will see how much better you will feel and when you feel better you will do better, just start by changing one thing. Ive been lazy lately and weight is starting to creep up again and Im sleeping the day away again and as I don't work that is a very easy thing to do. So today I decided to start on my treadmill again, just did 15 minutes - don't like it but feel good Ive achieved something today. Do something you feel comfortable and okay with doing with the aim of feeling good about yourself. Lots of weight loss groups here on DS and tons of stuff on the internet to help you get focused and stay focused. Surgery is not a miracle cure as so many tv programmes show - Im currently watching 600lb losers and was so shocked at one of the entrants, Pauline and not because she was clearly fooling herself but because I saw myself in her, eek, that was a wakeup call for me. For your post you come across as a educated person and I reckon you can find your way to weight loss. Yes, right now you are just bogged down by the sheer size of the problem but if you keep on chipping away at it you can do it. Talking to a friend about an outfit in a shop I said I "can't" fit into it and my friend put her hand on my arm and said "but you can" - that is the difference between my attitude and hers, mine was can't and hers was can. Hope you can make a start and if you want someone to listen to you, Im here. Take care.

Wish I had the answer for you, we have a lot in common. Good advise here to start slowly and try and make a plan. Hang in there!

I was like this for years. It felt like my life had been put on pause and I was stuck living in the past and going through all the pain I have been through. I had no motivation to do anything at all. Everything hurt when I did get up the motivation to move. There was so much going on in my head that I could never relax or enjoy life. My doctor put me on Zoloft and Clonazepam. I have been more active and calm than ever.
You have a lot of stress in your life. You work A LOT. You've got kids. There's probably stuff going on 24/7. I do understand with your being on the road that much that there really isn't a lot of healthy food options. You are a strong, vibrant woman. Take little steps each day. Maybe walk some places where you usually would drive to. Eat a salad or make healthier food choices when you are out. Maybe pack your lunches and snacks at home and put them in a cooler. Then you would have healthy options with you. I know temptation is so hard but step by step you will feel real proud of yourself. You are not alone. I am really glad you came to this site.

I'm so sorry your feelings are dragging you down. I think you need to discuss these feeling with your doctor. Feeling depressed sucks all motivation out of you. Your doctor will know if it's time to start a program of medication that may help you get started. I know anti-depressants often cause weight gain....but there are new meds that address this issue.
As for weight loss surgery, continue to look into this option. It's not for everybody and it's not a miracle but it's worth researching. This is another subject to discuss with your primary care physician.
I'm sending happy thought your way and hoping you are feeling better soon!
Jo