So the guy at my work last week asked me out on a lunch date . I thought he was joking seriously no guy has ever asked me out . So not serious I told him I had to think about it .Only After I realised he was serious . I told him how about this Friday at lunch time. Well it is this Friday and nothing I worked my shift waited thinking maybe he came to work later then I he was the engineer of the place I work . The maintenance guy otherwise known as. I was slightly dissapointed,but honestly was not surprised . Like Josph freaking Santiago he found someone,or something to do,or be with better. The fact he never showed up does not shock me,or dissapoint me much what is the real kicker is I am use to it . Omg am I so use to it . I think we meant to say I am use to being alone I was alone in all my school's except Monroe junior high and I am use to being alone as a 20 something and now a 40 something It is like second nature to me. Which is really sad because I am use to being alone,and lonely Now the anger : I can't wait to get the hell out of hear Away from these shallow,superficial assholes that just fuck me over every fucking time I give them a break . Fuck this place and the men in it I have had just about enough of this crap. Can't wait to get the hell out of Florida and never look back . I have stayed from hear and people in general lately All I want to do is read stories on Wattpad,com and try to finish my stories up .and work on my photography . I am not ever giving another man around hear a second look hell not even a first look . No make it another Florida man again there just .. I am just over their immature superficial crap. If Any of you men end up with a hoe that cheats on you,and doesn't respect you then good it serves you right for being so fucking image only type of man . Wish I could leave for Arizona now the men hear can go fuck their selves for all I care .