So today was my birthday, yet it's made me feel down. I got a text from my mum and one of my sisters (I have 2 sisters, 1 brother), my mum dropped off a present and card from her and my dad. My boyfriend only remembered it was my birthday after I'd told him about my daughter singing happy birthday to me and he posted on Facebook. Then he caused an argument.Yeah I got messages on Facebook, but today was meh. I always do special cards for those closest to me and try to give thoughtful presents. I'm not bothered about receiving gifts but I just feel like the only person who cared was my 9 year old daughter. And that is pretty amazing, she's an amazing little girl and that is all that matters I suppose. But I just don't feel special to anyone else.
I know this probably sounds stupid and I can't even describe how I'm feeling. I just feel like no one cares enough to make me feel special. And I feel like this almost every year. Probably sounds selfish. But I never get fussed over and everyone needs to be fussed over once in a while don't they?
Who you would trust on a desert island!
These last few weeks it's been incredibly hard. Depression is almost to the point of paralyzing me. I couldn't even go to work last monday because I felt paralyzed, I was stuck on bed all morning. I even registered to some talks about how to handle depression, hopefully I can learn few tricks on how to battle this thing. In the meantime I'm suffering and not even getting enough sleep because of...