Hugs to you!!!!!!!!! We are never truly alone. We always have God!!! But I do understand your feelings, though.

Please don't tell yourself that you are alone because you aren't. I know that being on DS is not the same as family and friends that you can touch, but believe me, you will be amazed at how people here on DS quickly become family. They have for me. When I am so down and just want say "see ya later", I think of my DS family first. Sweety you are not responsible for what your parents do or don't do. I know that it's hard to hear people that you love fighting, but it's important that you keep what is going on with them, separate from what you are going through. It has been said that time heals all wounds but I do not agree with that statement. The wounds remain but in time, the mind, protecting its sanity covers them with scar tissue, and the pain will lessen even though it never is gone.
And if I could could tell you one thing it would be that you are never broken as you think you are. Sure, you have a couple of scars, and bad memories, but then again all great heroes do. That last statement was a quote but I don't know the author. I just feel it pertains to what you are feeling right now. I don't have a car either but my reasons are because I couldn't afford to keep it up any longer. Do you get disability benefits? Do you have low income housing in your area? There are so many resources out there for us but we have to do a lot of work to find it. I too am on disability and fight about finances. Please know you are not alone and we want to help you, support you, and do what we can. Please don't give up and have faith. Many hugs Gramybear

I feel bad most of the time. I hate life too. There are alot of ways to make money. Check out You Tube. They have many coaching videos on how to make money. Backpage ( the site) have many money making opp. Watch out for scams. Read their reivews.

I know that feeling. After battling cancer and my husband leaving me with our car and my savings, I just hated my life. Sometimes I still hate my life.

Just know that you are not alone. And continue to share.

Hugs.

That rotten guy. Sorry you had to go through that. I got dumped from three serious relationships before I finally got married. None were ready for that kind of commitment and decided they liked someone else better. I was feeling pretty much the same at 24, pretty hopeless at times I remember, but you never know what's down the road. Don't give up, even though your present circumstances look bleak. I met my husband under really ridiculous circumstances, he took one look at me and that was it for him. Poor guy, I wasn't the finest example of womanhood but he was smitten. I outlived him, that's my only real complaint.

The well-adjusted families that are protective of each family member and watch out for each other are mostly in commercials at Christmas time. They exist, but are definitely scarce.

My twenties were the worst decade, by far. I couldn't imagine things getting better, and for many young women living in their parents' home, they are treated more like a kid than an adult.

Spend as little time as possible in the environment that is bringing you down. Things you might do: take walks, go to the library. People who are passionate about something not tied to people
(part of an A. Einstein quote) are usually the happiest.

Setting goals -writing them down, help keep some motivated and determined. Being strong and having faith that things will get better is half the battle.

Sending good thoughts :)

Life is hard and does suck sometimes. It will hit you hard and heavy, but only if you let it. Continue to share, read inspirational quotes, set little goals to achieve bigger goals, write them down and look at them daily. Make sure one of those goals is to be happy and smile.
You are not alone. :)
Hoping the best for you!

Thank you guys very much for your love and support. I am doing ok now. I still sense the loneliness. At this moment, my dad is upstairs in his room and my mom is yawning on the couch and I'm here.. kind of a sucky life. I do get disability but its barely anything because I have not been working enough. ahhh.. i guess that is life.

i compleatly understand this has ben the worst year ever. the day befor my birthday [jauary 5th] was the last day i got to see the kids i watched i loved them as my own even there crazzy mother. i didnt see my anyone on my birthday my mom had court and when she got home she forgot about me and went to sleep, not to long later she lost it due to meth im dad was ran out 3 years ago by my mother [she lied and said its cause he wanted to do meth] she became a hard achoalic. everyone i have is droping like flies my friend i used to counsel and havent seen or talked to since febuary commited suiside because apparently he had no one ever since i moved 3 years ago in 1/2 an hour when i was told we wernt ever moving again when we first got out there i leagily went through 3 familys under two hours in mid march i haven told anyone i loved them and ment it since then i haven gotten attached to anyone since febuary last year when the fastest friend i ever trusted went to prison for something eals and it feels as if who ever likes me gets hurt when i cant help it i feel like no one will love me the way i love everyone and anyone plus sometimes its like no one wants me to love them like i have some kind of no love luck

I'm in the same boat as you almost, except I am not on disability, I am however trying to get SSI, as I have not been able to work really for a few years now because of my health problems. It's really debilitating, and the pain is ridiculous at times. Sometimes I find myself wishing I just stopped it all and didn't keep on with this life trying to find what will make me happy. It's really a handful, I have few friends, I've lost a lot of the ones I have had in the past because of various reasons, and it's just made me feel worse over the years. I'm only in my 20s and I feel like my health and life in general is going downwards rather than up, and it's been this way for a few years now already... I really don't know what to do, I feel lonely, I want a relationship, I know that would help with the loneliness but all women seem to want a guy with a job, and that's just something I can't handle right now. I feel like I'm stuck in a trap or something without any visible way out. It's discouraging to say the least, I also relate with wanting to move out of your parents, I'm still stuck here wanting to find a place of my own but I just don't have the income to accomplish that. It leaves me feeling like I'm less of a man, and I know that isn't true, but it's hard to yourself as well as others. Never the less, you have to be strong and put your mind to finding a way to get around your obstacles and disabilities and come out on top. Don't give up yet.

I feel like you do every day. I got injured at work 18 years ago; and became unable to ever work again in 03'. Then last year; my wife of 30 years walked in one day; and said she was divorcing me. I have been totally alone for over a year now. All my disability income goes to pay the mortgage on my house; so I have to take a large chunk of my savings every month, to cover all the other expenses it takes to live. I finally got a dog a few weeks ago. At least he can lay in bed with me. and play from my bed. But I can't do anything physical; and at over 60; it is unlikely anyone would ever want me in my condition. When my savings run out; I will be forced to sell my house; and move to another state; where I won't know a soul. I am in so much pain; and can't get even half the medication I need anymore; so I feel like what is the whole point of living a life alone in my house; and in writhing pain all the time. I fell backwards on Monday; and cracked m head on the floor. I feel like if I had died from that; no one would have even known. As it was; I figure I had a concussion; but since I lay in bed all day and night anyway; why should I see a doctor. And I feel what you are going through without a car in California. It is not like other places that have good mass transit. I guess if you are in the S.F. Bay area; then you have BART; but anywhere else in this state; especially in SoCal; you really need a car to get anywhere. Right now; the only thing keeping me going is my new dog. Even though I can't really afford the extra expenses; I am not sure I would still be here without him. At least he doesn't care that I am disabled.

But you are very young; and have your whole life ahead of you. You will get better from your car accident; find a new job; and then your life will get back to some sort of normalcy. So try not to focus on a temporary problem. For a woman your age; as they say; "This too shall pass:. So try and hang in there; You have a lot of support on here, too help you through this trying time for you.

classicarman, there is someone out there for you if you are looking for one. There are many sites and apps to meet someone. Sounds like things are rough for you too. I think a great woman would be interested in a man like yourself. You have every reason to live and get better. Unfortunately, we can't get rid of pain.. I used to take a bunch of drugs and still feel the pain in my fractured neck and head stitches. I'm so glad you got that adorable looking puppy!!! I've read that puppies are very loyal and loving. Wish I had a pet, but I can't because we live in an apartment. Thank you for your kind words.

Aw I am sorry you have alot going on and I am in this downward spiral and it's so hard pulling ourself back up. I hope things are getting better. Hugs