I feel so ridiculous posting about this but I need someone to be honest with me & tell me what to do lol. I was messing around with a married man. I know, it's not right but I got attached and he cut me off. We work together. Seeing him was hard. It got harder when I saw him with another coworker of ours. He claims they're just friends. He swears they're relationship was. Nothing sexual. It's been MONTHS and they're still talking. A while ago I found a letter she had written him. It was a love letter. Part of me was upset because how come she gets to tell him she loves him and he's okay with it but I mention possibly having feelings and he stops talking to me. But the other part of me was jealous of her. I'm always asking myself "why does he want her so much? Does he love her? What does she have that I don't?" She's prettier and she's taller and she has bigger boobs than I do but man. I know he's not mine. You can't lose what wasn't yours to begin with but what hell? I hate her. I hate him. I hate myself for feeling this way because he's married! I just know they're not "just friends" you don't sneak around with a "friend" at work. They think they're being discreet but the whole fucking building knows. I hate it. He made me feel so shitty for what we did. He said he regretted it. He said it was gonna haunt him forever but he can still fuck around with her? That's not gonna haunt him? Why? What's different? Ugh. I'm sorry, I know I sound stupid. & I shouldn't worry about who he's doing but I can't help it.
Hello, I hope someone reads this, I could really use the help. I have been married for 11 years to my faithful, wonderful, beautiful wife. Through that time I stuggled with an unmedicated bipolar disorder, and would self medicate with illegal substances. Safe to say I spent 8 years cheating on this woman with any chance I got. I identify as a straight man, but I cheated with men too. Like I said...