SO another emotional start to my day.

After my last post. We have had a few days break, so this morning we start to make love ( well, have sex anyway) and were getting on okay. Then he wanted to do a position I don't particularly like, which he knows does nothing for me, the same one which caused issues before, and I said ' can you come on top' I love it when you are on top of me and I can feel all of you' and that was it. Game over.

It seems that because I won't do what he wants he won't play. I like to communicate during sex not just lie there! To me its supposed to be a way of showing how much you love someone, and of giving them pleasure. So I communicate.
I tried to cajole him into keeping going, but no he wasn't having any of it.
His way or no way!

It isn't that we are sexually incompatible, I believe you can have great sex with anyone if you can both communicate what you need. and care about each others needs.

I feel like he is playing games and 'punishing' me. He is big on the tit-for-tat style of relationship which I know is typical Narcissist trait.

I am sick of crying in the shower every morning and I said so.
So I went in the shower for my cry. Came out and its as if it never happened. He's all chatty and fine with me.

Where do I go with this? I feel this slipping away. Im not sure that is such a bad thing as I am aware there are issues with him that are worrying. but I want to try.