So 2 days ago I had lost a relatively big amount of money gambling. Yesterday when I woke up I told myself I wasnt going to gamble anymore, The day goes on and im still telling myself not to gamble. Once I get out of school I call my bookie and place a bet to try and win back the money I lost the night before.
Of course I lose my bets and end up falling asleep out of my depression for actually betting when I told myself not to. I wake up, middle of the night in my sweat, cant go back to sleep because all I can think about is how much I money lost and how much it hurt me financially, I had a terrible feeling in my stomach and heart. So I decide to search the web for ways that I can get over that terrible feeling that comes from losing money while gambling.
I stumble upon this website and read a bunch of posts on gambling, you guys made me feel like I wasnt alone and that I would be able to get through this dark time. I end up falling asleep. This morning im telling myself that im going to fight through this addiction and start a road towards recovery......I end up calling my bookie 5 minutes before the game starts and placing a bet. Of course I lose again.
So today I decided to join and share my story because I need HELP with this addiction, it is ruining my life. I lost my social life, I dont have the energy or will to excersize anymore, all my money goes to gambling and ive lost all sense of what my priorities are. I just want to stop before its too late. (PS. I wonder if I would be here had I won tonight and sorry for the long story lol)
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