So 2 days ago I had lost a relatively big amount of money gambling. Yesterday when I woke up I told myself I wasnt going to gamble anymore, The day goes on and im still telling myself not to gamble. Once I get out of school I call my bookie and place a bet to try and win back the money I lost the night before.
Of course I lose my bets and end up falling asleep out of my depression for actually betting when I told myself not to. I wake up, middle of the night in my sweat, cant go back to sleep because all I can think about is how much I money lost and how much it hurt me financially, I had a terrible feeling in my stomach and heart. So I decide to search the web for ways that I can get over that terrible feeling that comes from losing money while gambling.
I stumble upon this website and read a bunch of posts on gambling, you guys made me feel like I wasnt alone and that I would be able to get through this dark time. I end up falling asleep. This morning im telling myself that im going to fight through this addiction and start a road towards recovery......I end up calling my bookie 5 minutes before the game starts and placing a bet. Of course I lose again.
So today I decided to join and share my story because I need HELP with this addiction, it is ruining my life. I lost my social life, I dont have the energy or will to excersize anymore, all my money goes to gambling and ive lost all sense of what my priorities are. I just want to stop before its too late. (PS. I wonder if I would be here had I won tonight and sorry for the long story lol)
Well I did it again...gambled away every last cent. Disgusted with myself...praying this time I have the strength to be done for good. So my apology is that I plan to post a single phrase every day...starting today...and that is TODAY I WILL NOT GAMBLE. That’s gotta be my first and foremost thought every day. So if you see these repeated posts from me, I’m sorry if they annoy you but please...
hi everyone!.. Its been a while since I post here...and always thank you for your support. last time I gambled at the casino was a week ago and after losing little more than 1000$ it really hit me hard and my self-esteem just sank. So the next day I called and scheduled an appointment with a credit counselor...she was very kind and understanding ..we went through all my...