man where do i start....

the last few days have been upsetting and full of drama.
yesterday i went out to my truck to change the oil my self. last time it needed the oil changed i couldn't do it cuz i wasn't feeling too well so my bf took it to a shop to have it done.
well when i got out to take the oil drain plug off i noticed it was really stuck.
i came back inside very upset about it and asked Matthew for a receipt since he last took it to a shop and THEY ARE THE ONES THAT F*CKED IT UP and that's when all hell broke lose. he argued with me nonstop for like an hr even when i shut the door in his face to take a shower, he kept yelling thru the door!! no matter how much i had tried to tell him it was the shop's fault, he still put up a HUGE fight saying that i am blaming HIM!

then this morning at 3 am his cat Miko started meowing nonstop thru our bedroom door. this cat has been waking me up every early ass morning now for how many days in a row!!!! so this time i put him in the down stairs bath room!

then i can't go back to sleep because the ringing in my ears keeps me awake since Matthew took my $12 fan away the other day and that fan (kept on in the back ground) kept the high pitch ringing in my head down! so i could SLEEP!!!!

so i told him i can't sleep and why and that i have had trouble sleeping for days and next thing i know he is lecturing me very loudly about the ringing in my ears in a condescending manner for 2 whole hours about how it doesn't make sense and i should be able to sleep thru it etc!!! did i mention it's like 4 in the morning!!!

so i told him to either shut the hell up or get out of my bed and go sleep in the guest bed or on the couch!! he says no! it's his room too since he lives here! uh no, i bought the house and it's my bed, so get out of my bed! he says no again!

i told him i was really pissed and was about to get violent! so he said he would shut up and not talk to me anymore.

next hting i know, he is out of the bed making a raket, brings in the fan, turns on the light, banging everything in the room, shouting at me about the truck again, shouting at me about the ringing in my ears again, shouting at me about how he should callthe cops on me for threatening to hurt him or kill him, and all kinds of crazy shit!!! so i told him, to pack a bag of clothing for the day and get out for now cuz he don't wanna be in the house with me! not like this!

i start getting clothing off the hangers and he grabs his phone saying "if you don't wanna go to jail, i'd put those clothes back! i'm only trying to help you!" he tries to convince me that he's gonna stay and i dn';t go to jail and we both get what we want! WFT?!?! hell no!! asshole! pack your shit and get the fuck out!

my mom came in and separated us, said that we were both wrong. she told us to both stop. so i stopped talking. but he kept on talking down to me in his condescending manner about how all my little "health problems don't add up" and my behavior is crazy and RUDE, yada yada, made some threats about calling the cops on me again.... mom stopped him again. i told him that he should get the shit beat out of him for the way he just spoke to me. that's how i was raised.

finally he grabbed some clothing and left.

i've been crying all morning. i don't know what to think of the whole matter. we've been going to couples counseling for almost 3 moths now and things were going really good. then this past week he just hit this condescending mode or something and thinks he can just lecture the fuck out of me. it's over. i'm really f*ckin depressed........