Hi there. I'm new here, and just recently diagnosed and I dont know what to do. Now that I know whats wrong I know I need to make changes in my life but I'm not sure which. Figured maybe asking some fibro veterns for thier input might help. (sorry for spelling in advance I'm dyslexic)
First, Hi im Jac, or Jackie, and I'm currently a college third year studying nueroscience (ironic I know). As much as I love it I seem to fall into a cycle every semester of starting out strong, getting sick, fighting through it, getting more and more fatiugued, leading to depression and isolation, and bearly scraping by at finals. Then over break I feel like a faluire and hate myself. (aswell as struggle to find a place to stay since I'm not on good terms with my parents to say the least) I go from 100's on tests and being involved in research to being in bed for two weeks and taking incompletes for my classes. Now at least I have an answer for why I always feel so terrible but no real cure. And now I'm questioning what to do with my life. I love science but I know the way I am practicing it now is unsistanable. I also love art and animation and considered switching majors in the past, but I also love sceince and labs. I was happy to change it until I thought there was a cure for my pain (we found a massive tumor on my ovary) It's been months since surgury and I dont feel any better. obviously I'm glad I dont have a tumor though. Anyway, Im not sure what to do. At this point it is impossible to switch majors to art without spending soooo much more money. I also never want to stop learning about the brain, or animation.( but no offence I can study animation at home and with practice) And if I dropped out I would have to start paying back my loans. I have no job or money really because of corona. I dont have the tools to sell my art for money or anything. and god the last two weeks have been sooo painful. (likley stress or cold from basement I'm staying in) I don't want to underestimate what I can do with my life and the dreams I want to achieve. But I also dont want to overestimate myself and be in pain and feel terrible when I fall short. I know I just unloaded a lot but, does anyone have any advice? or maybe share your experience when you were first diagnosed. Thanks so much for reading!
Hey, everybody, just wanting to say thanks for getting me through the latest gut punch of another pandemic travel ban. As you all know, I got PTSD growing up in Mexico and Uruguay as a missionary kids with parents who weren't evacuated from a war zone. They got PTSD really bad and turned to violence in the house that sadly matched the violence of the war out in the streets.I wasn't a soldier,...
Well, it's not yet 9 Am an dmy day sucks! Guess what showed up 9 days off schedule? (Guys, you can guess. Gals, you don't have to. You know.)Yep. Nine days off schedule. That's a record. Never more than 3 before. Oh.... crud. And it's the worst weather for my fibro --- warm and humid. Yippee!SO LET'S TALK.****LET'S TALK...CANDY!The gummy bear was invented in Germany.The caramel-chocolate candy we...