Yup, that's what I've concluded. Back in March, when our son asked for a couple weeks home, I shoulda said NO FREAKING WAY! But instead I said yes. Here we are in July.....and it was going well until.......the other day. He wasn't feeling good at his gf's house, fell asleep before work, didn't show up and ended up getting fired. SWEARS that it was just that one time and it was unfounded why he was fired....on the flip side, he DID get his license, took the test on Friday and passed thank GOD!

So, I took 11 days off of work, I needed some 'stress free' time. My hubby is on his way to NY for some work training. I figured I'd have time to myself get stuff done around the house and the kid comes home. He was fine until he asked for a ride to go see his gf at 8pm, I said no, he got pissed, threw his phone down the stairs and low and behold dug a nice chunk out of the wall. THIS will probably be the end for my hubby, he takes MUCH pride in this home. He just painted too, so I got PISSED! He began yelling and crying that he wanted to die that he can't seem to get ahead no matter what he does, that his past haunts him and he can't get a break. WELL, call me crazy, but my give a damn is busted. I can't stand this kid. He is a freaking drama queen, he hasn't smoked a joint today so he is all tears and bullshit! He just came in my room, and I have to say, I can't stand looking at him, I've been here with his freaking birth father, i do NOT want to go through it again, he will NOT go to a doctor, he would rather 'be dead' than take pills....oh OKAY... It's like Ground Hog day....you won't take pills prescribed by a doctor, but you'll shoot heroin, pop oxys' and whatever else, but you will NOT go to a doctor....WTF? I know, kick his ass out the door....well, it ain't that easy! He's got NO friends anymore, before when I tossed him out, he had friends to go live with...now he has nothing and noone but his gf.....

Meanwhile his 'grandmother' on the stupid fathers' side is posting on his FB....'oh yeah, one goal accomplished' I feel like writing....'yeah bitch, your son NEVER paid child support in his 18 years, so why doesn't HE buy him a car or you? FREAK....and braggin how she is going to her summer place for the weekend....I can't stand that witch....and my son refuses to call them and ask them to buy him a car...I told him they OWE him THAT much.....sorry I don't have the $$$$ I live paycheck to paycheck beCAUSE of those losers....

I'm so angry tonight it is insane so I came here to vent instead of venting crap out to him that he wouldn't get or care to get anyhow....

At this point I wished he'd smoke a joint and knock the 'pity me' crap out...I told him only HE can change his future, noone can do it for him....

He said "i want my life back'.....I felt like saying 'YEAH, I want MINE back too!"......

I'll be surprised if I'm not divorced by the end of the year. I feel bad for my hubby....he doesn't even talk to the kid anymore, he has had enough of his crap! And I don't blame him.

The kid even said....'yeah throw me out, i'll NEVER talk or see you again EVER'....PROMISE?

Thanks for reading my anger fueled rant! I'll be better in the a.m.....:O)...