54Mariposa-- I am very happy for you, and I completely respect that your ED is as painful to you as mine is to me. There is no such thing as varying degrees of pain, and I never meant to imply otherwise. However, I do think this was a somewhat tactless thread, and since as silverstars points out there is no moderator for this board, I wanted to voice my opinion, which I have every right to do. Accountability is a very touchy subject for some, and not the word I would've used. I did not mean to offend you, but my opinion is still that this thread should have been started elsewhere. I am very happy for you and your success.

red, I just replied this morning to a post of yours that I felt uncomfortable with (you said you were a size 4) as I think naming what size you are on an ED board is very inappropriate. HOWEVER, since that is my OPNION, I supported your post and did not lecture you. Maybe next time you feel uncomfortable with a thread you could just move on and skip the lecture like others have shown you the courtesy of doing? Just a suggestion because we are all different here and as I said, ANYTHING could serve as a trigger to another person.

ForestFreak, I am so sorry if you were triggered by that post. Of course you are entitled to your opinion as is everyone on here. Please know my posts on here were not intended to lecture, I felt I had to say how I felt about this post. Again, I didn't intend to lecture anyone and I am sorry if it came over that way. I'm not going to comment on this thread anymore.

I am sorry, Red, for ALL of us.

Forgive me for my ignorance, but please explain why accountability is a touchy subject.

I'm confused.......what is wrong with the word "accountability"????

54Mariposa, you are most definitely NOT ignorant. I don't know how to explain the connotations "accountability" has for me.

So, I guess for me the word "accountability" implies a disregard for ED, like it's not a genuine problem. "It's all in your head"-- it doesn't actually exist. It makes it sound like an excuse, not a real psychological problem that many people struggle with which manifests itself as much physically as it does mentally. I'm sorry I have no other explanation right now.

Wow! That is really interesting!

To me, it means more like I am finally coming to grips with the fact that I do, in fact, have a serious medical condition and that the illness can wreak havoc on both body and soul.

By being accountable, I am able to learn how to depend on others - individuals and in community - who will be there to encourage me to learn how to change my behaviours, to the extent that the behaviours CAN be changed PLUS to help me to understand when I am pushing myself into unrealistic expectations.

I have never been in an AA or OE group, but I know that those programs have "admitting that I have a problem" and announcing it to others who will be supportive is the first step.

Wow! Your interpretation is fascinating! I admit - it never really occurred to me, and I am sorry if it touched on Something for you.

It's okay, and how you view "accountability" makes sense too, I can understand your view in my head. I guess I would call that "mindfulness." Thank you for clarifying!

That sounds just fine to me, Red. I will use "mindfulness" instead if that's ok with you.

LOL

One full week of Mindfulness!!!

:)

Today is our company party... No worries about over-eating at the event: I am a vegetarian and the menu is ALL meat and seafood - Nothing that would even tempt me.

What concerns me is the stress of having to endure the party, especially since I am having REAL issues with the way the employees are treated in my workplace.

I am worried that I will be tempted to binge AFTER the party because I am going to hate it and be so uncomfortable.

Thanks for reading!!!! Wish me LUCK!

8 days binge free. I am so relieved to be able to tell you that I suffered through that awful party yesterday and wasn't even tempted to indulge in any of the foods I COULD have eaten.... AND - since I was prepared for a bad reaction, I noticed when I was getting into a bad pattern which could have caused me to misfire....

Whew!

Have a good weekend Everyone!

I did not binge today but all week was awful as shit. I binged and purged yesterday with a sore throat from a cold. Felt like my throat was going to split in half. I had to take benadryl and ibuprofen to help with the pain. Signs I need to stop.

So make this 20 hours BP free and laxative free
It's a start

On my 9th day....

I am in awe of those who have the courage to post when things aren't going as well as would be hoped....

I am one of Those People who has a really hard time admitting when I am troubled and I have an ever worse time asking for help.

That is probably how the ED started in the first place.

Pardon the bad pun, but do you thing ED "feeds" on perfectionism?
(Sorry - couldn't resist.)

I wonder how many of us are turning to food or no food as a way to achieve some sort of weird balance or denial....

Hope everyone has a calm, healthy day today. xoxoxo

10 days! 20 more to "HABIT!"

Good luck, Everyone with all the Treats....

I walked into my office this morning to find that some Loving, Generous Soul had gifted me with a box of Jacques Torres slated caramels....

The garbage will enjoy them - AND won't have any "issues" about it....

UGH!