I have been asking a lot of "why did this happen to me' lately. I just feel like everything I thought was going well actually turned out to be completely horrible. I try so hard and I just want to give up so badly. I feel so heavy and exhausted, and every day I am praying that things will get better. And I am terrified that they won't and that my enitre life is just going to fall apart. Even though my depression has gotten better, it still creeps up on me, and this time I think it may hurt even more than it did before.