I understand you. I use to cut myself . And than I saw how my friend cared for me I stopped doing it. But I did something else as a alternative I starve myself so I can control my emotions.
Always remember no matter what someone cares for you and that person won't like to see you hurt . Take care !
And don't copy me I'm serious starving yourself is horrible when you start it its more hard to get out of it .

Okay, so both of you need to understand that the behaviors your using are Learned Behaviors that you've adopted to deal with the "stress, fear, anxiety, anger, sadness, etc." all the emotions that your not dealing with that cause you to feel bad. Cutting, or any type of Self-Harm and Eating Disorders come from the same part of the brain...the Limbic System, that dark powerful place where addictions are controlled. When you cut your brain releases chemicals and endorphins that give you a momentary "bump" and makes you feel better briefly, very briefly. But cutting is a Learned Behavior and as such it is extremely addictive.

Same with Eating Disorders, extremely addictive, they give you a false sense of control, and once you start they are hard to stop.

I'm 50 years old, a retired Psychologist. I was diagnosed BiPolar 30 years ago. I started cutting when I was 13ish...because I never knew how to handle the emotions and trauma my Pedophile father caused me.

I have a lot of experience, education and training in all of this, "been there, done it, and have many, many t-shirts."

Cutting is just like a drug addiction, if you start it back up, odds are you won't stop, and every time you start and try to stop it just gets harder and harder. You have to learn new safe, healthy behaviors to deal with the Emotional stress, basically re-train your brain. If your not seeing a Pdoc (psychiatrist) and Therapist it would be a good idea to do so. They can help you get on a Treatment Program to manage things and work towards stability. There are meds that can help you from a Pdoc. And a Therapist can help you learn Coping Skills to use when you get to the point of wanting to cut or having urges.

I hope that you consider getting the help that you need.

Take care,

Kat

I know this is kind of a lame idea but maybe a rubber band or hair tie on your wrist to snap yourself? I've seen people do it when they are trying to quit cigarettes and things, still get a sting of pain without any real harm

Hey Rina. I messaged you privately and I hope you respond. I totally know what that's like though.

Is it odd for someone my age (50) to use a weight like cutting? To regain control and to feel physically what I am feeling mentally?

Hello Rina,
I’m very sorry you feel this way. But please don’t harm yourself again. Try to do things that will distract you from thinking of cutting yourself.
Please feel free to post anytime, it will help you to relieve the sadness you have now. Have you tried to talk to your parents about how you feel? If you need more help, please consult with a doctor. I hope you can get the help you need to feel better.

Try to join a youth group in your church. Being surrounded with people who will encourage and pray for you is a huge help. I hope to hear from you again. I pray that God’s peace and comfort be upon you. Take care.