Hello,

I don't know why I am so overwhelmed.  I am in graduate school, and I'm only working part time.  Compared to working full time as a teacher, this shouldn't seem like as much, but it just feels totally overwhelming.

It seems like grad school is much harder than my BA.  I guess that is to be expected.  I'm stressed that my loans are now at 100k, which is what I was trying to avoid, but I guess that is the price of trying to get more higher education.  I don't know where I would have been without my first degree, there really would have been no viable career path for me.

Anyway, on my days "off" meaning from work, I can barely move my arse.  They are not days off, but days spent at the library, like 6 to 8 hours. I'm not complaining, just saying, it takes up all my time.  I can't imagine if I'd tried to hang on to my fulltime, I don't think this would have even been possible.

I guess what bothers me is my inertia.  On the day that I have to be at work, I'm up very early, like 5 AM, out the door, and working.  Even though my job is not really hard per se, I am totally shot by the time that I get home.  After errands, I laid down at 7 PM and was fast asleep, and then was up again at 10 PM.  I could not for the life of me go to bed again until 3 AM, which means that I could not get up and get moving until about 10:30 AM this morning.  This makes me so mad as it really shorten the day.  The previous semesters on my day off, I was up much earlier, around 8 AM or so, and would study from about 10 AM to 6 PM.  I don't know WTH is wrong with me.  I pass out on Fridays, and on weekends can sleep about 12 hours.  If I was up much earlier on my library days, I would be so much more productive.  It put me in such a foul mood when I saw how late it was this morning.  So my study session doesn't get started until 1 or 2 and I am done about 7 or 8, which really is getting late.  Also my thesis/portfolio is due in one month, which is like having another class.  It is so much.

Anyway I just needed to vent.  Anyone else here have problems sleeping, either getting to sleep or staying asleep?  It is such a disruption.