I wish I could offer help but I can tell you I understand and feel the same way. I do have moments that I feel ok but not too many. Watching things on you tube and face book that make me laugh help. Being with my grand kids help. I know that exercise would help and cutting out sugar. It is poison to your brain. My son in law is going through a very stressful time of life and has taken up running which is helping. I am going to start exercising as well. Good luck and God bless

I am so sorry that you are feeling all of this right now, you have got this far though, keep at it, you say there is no hope or chance of you being okay, but keep reaching out to us, PM me if you need to, we care. The fact that you said ‘family and friends’ are at a loss. Tells me that they care too, want to help and want to understand, it’s hard to get your head around especially when someone you love is going through so much pain. Keep talking to them and help them understand, helping them will help you.

Do you take anxiety and/or depression meds? Are you bipolar? Your age? I would keep going back to my Doctor until they have the right combination of meds. Many of us have been where you are. If you don't push these Doctors or find the right Doctor, Indocrinologist, you will only get worse. Npush.... You're condition and symptoms are not your fault. Fight for your life. It doesn't have to be this way. But if you're doing any kind of illegal drugs, your self-defeating your progress. No drugs?

I am so sorry you are struggling. Depression is a horrible illness that can really affect our life. I have been there where I couldn't get out of bed. It really is important that you continue going to your doctor and trying to get the right medication. Depression is often related to a chemical imbalance in our brains and it takes medication to help get it regulated.

It takes time to find the right medication and dose. Give it time and don't give up. Also, counseling is important along with the medication for your healing process. It also takes time to find the right counselor and work together to find coping skills and the root of your depression. For years I would be able to manage my depression with medication and counseling, but I did spiral on and off. Until I finally learned to give myself a break, not be so hard on myself, not let others make me feel bad about myself, stand up for myself, and change my focus to things I enjoy (when your depressed that is not easy) but over time it gets easier and better. Many churches provide counseling and there are also online groups that can help you find a counselor that you can afford. I had to let go and let God be in control of my life. I pray regularly and try to not allow my thoughts control me. Please seek the help you need. I will be praying for you. Please keep in touch and let us know how you are doing. You can pm me and I am happy to listen and encourage you.
God Bless!

How are you doing this week? I have been praying for you.

Hello there - there may be programs out there that can help through the state you live in. Can you check with your doctor. I understand it can be costly getting a therapist. I would definitely start with your doctor and let him or her know. It’s an awful disease. I too suffer from depression and anxiety.

Hope you feel better soon. However I know it’s very hard too cause I’m trying to find something that’s works better myself.
Take care