Amber, you have a lot on your plate right now. Write ups are warnings, not firing. Phones can be fixed. Exes are problems, and hooking up with your best friend is mean on both their parts. You have begun to release this by posting here. Please journal instead of cutting. Look past the immediate relief of the cutting. Hurt a pillow, not yourself. Calming and comforting hugs.

I often think back on cutting with fondness, it seemed like a good escape at the time. But then two seconds later I remember... It never really did make anything better, and I was just uncomfortable, covered in scabs, and constantly worried my secret would peek out from under my clothes. I'm so sorry for the series of situations you've been put through lately, but believe me, it is all temporary. Good and bad things come and go, and this time you just got a lump of bad stuff at once. There are other ways to get the endorphins flowing just like when you cry or cut. Do some research to find something that could work for you.

>>and makes me feel better.

For a very short time. Otherwise, .. simply a foolish act. It's going to take something else to fix the problems.

believe it or not, i know exactly how you feel, i was married once, she cheated on me, then she divorced me and married my best friend, in the mean time my job of 25+ years turned bad, they wrote me up for every little thing they could find then when they had enough they cut me loose. i was so messed up at that point gender dysphoria was the lest of my concerns. at that point i was seriously considering death was the answer, but i was stronger then that and fought to survive, i spent the next ten years completely alone, and very depressed. after a long while of self reflection, i decided to end it all, not my life dear, but the pain and suffering that held me down for ten years after i lost it all. it wasnt drugs that saved me nor was it psychologists, it was me. i decided to climb out of that hole i dug myself, and live life again. from that moment, it only took about a month, i was back, found a new mate, a new place and family to replace the one i lost. so really dear, what that doesnt kill you can make you stronger, and f things seem so bleak you want to hurt your self,, dont,, just sit yourself down and calmly as you can think this out, find your solution out of this mess. we all are tested, God never gives you to much to handle, if it seems like a lot, then God, knows you can handle a lot. just know surviving will make you stronger, and learning from your mistakes will make you wiser, and overcoming crisis like this will make you happier then before, you cant know joy without sadness and accomplishment without a problem to solve. i will always be here for you, your family now, need help just ask , good luck.

Thank you Annie your words helped. Same with all the rest of you I nearly went to tears because I always felt so alone and used but you all have made me think that I never truly am alone

yes dear , if you choose not to be alone, you can always find a place your not , you just have to look for them. you found one here with us a place where your never truly alone, we will always be here if you need us. you did the right thing you asked us for help, theres always some here.

I’m sorry you are going through so much pain. Hugs and thoughts are with you, it is so hard not to cut when you really really want to. But you can resist, even if it’s just once. Well done for reaching out here. We’re all with you

Release your anxiety fears,cares,issues here with us.-we all have been where you are or are currently going through it- but if you know that there are genuine
people that care right here- take our hugs and feel comforted.Hugs Hugs Hugs.

Today managed to be the toughest day for me. She left and now I am by myself and last time I was by myself I had a suicide attempt. To be honest I wanted to just say good bye an hour ago but after I treated myself to a special mtn dew drink I feel a bit better. I still have the thought in my head and I feel so alone right now but not as bad as I did.

Your not alone- thoughts are just that-thoughts-They dont have any power
unless you give them a positive or negative charge.When you give your thoughts a negative charge- you torment yourself. A positive charge validates yourself and makes you live in the "now"Taking control of your thoughts and your thought process is an Art if you will that you can master over time
if you are willing.A little at a time. Hugs be well in your thoughts.Peace and
comfort sent your way,peace of mind, gentle nourishing thoughts may you ponder upon, ; )

Hey! Sorry this is going on. I just want you to know that I am praying for you! It has been a rough couple of weeks for me as well. My Grandfather died and was there with him at the time. My job is booming and is keeping me super busy and I am getting behind on home keep up and repairs. I am stressed to the max. Hang in there! We will both get through the "rut" and will grow stronger from it. I hope to hear from you soon!

Amber - So much turmoil in your life right now. It's understandable that you are very upset. I would suggest that you journal what is on your mind when you are thinking about cutting. Journaling can be a release too. We are happy that you reached out. You could take a kick boxing class or whatever workout you would prefer to do as well. I took a kick boxing class and it was a great way to release stress, frustration, and allows you to get your anger out. Or you could get a weight bag and just start punching and kicking on it. Hang in there and let us know how you are doing.

I will keep this thread posted. Today wasn't to bad of a day for me. I didn't really wanna cut or harm myself in anyway but my pain is still as real as it gets. This is the first time I've ever been by myself and im still trying to figure it all out

We are here for you.