Recently I don't get any satisfaction from living to the point of waking up thinking not again. It's like all of my avenues have been exhausted.
There are times I think about ending it all with different scenarios. Pretty bad thinking but feel abandoned.
I see why in life you make it or not in life. I'm just excisting day by day the same old depression and fed up of life.
Why an earth was I born for to endure this hell.
Pretty in dispair to the point of not wanting to get out of bed yet this morning. There is no point at all.
Everything is pointless. :(
How am I suppose to help others when I still have a hard time finding any meaning to my life - when the fear of my life ending and worry of what it would do to those in my life disappears. What is there left to stop me?
These past couple months have been so awful. I don’t understand it. I feel like I’m doing all the right things. Meds, going to therapy- and actively participating in therapy at that and using proper coping mechanisms. But I am so down. The depression only seems to be getting worse. I’ve given up a lot of hope that things could get better. I know I’ll survive but it’s almost like every...