what are you angry about?
Is there something going on in your life you feel you are powerless to control or has someone assaulted/violated you in someway that shouldn't have?
I was suicidal when I was 14yrs old and felt i was powerless to get away from an abusive situation.
if you can talk about it maybe you can figure out what to do
suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary situation

Just saw your post. Lots of anger towards yourself and others along with lots of pain and other intense emotions. I'm sorry you are going through that. Do you have someone there to vent to or a crisis number to call? Getting those intense emotions out helps work through whatever is going on in your situation. This is a good place to vent. You are not alone. What happened to you? What's up?

You are not a dumb idiot. Nor are you an ugly bastard either. People make mistakes but things can and do get sorted out and resolved even when it may seem impossible at the time. Intense emotions cloud your judgement making things worse. Bad things that happen to you may not be your fault in any way. Or it could be a consequence of a decision you made and sometimes things are straight up unfair. Bottling this stuff up inside will not help though. Get it off your chest. I'm listening if you are here now...

What kind of help are you looking for? What have you tried? What about a Psychiatrist for medications and support?

Please dont go. I struggle too but it has to get better. You see, I have depression, anxiety and body dysmorphic disorder. I have a hole in my septum( nose) and I can barely function. I have two kids with autism.
How easy it would be for me to just end it, and end the suffering of all around me?
Someone told me that the pain I feel inside would be transferred to the people I love. I couldn't do that.
Do you love anyone, even just a little? You will saddle them with this hurt without end. And what if it does get better? Stick around and see, everyday tell yourself, just one more day and maybe another.

Please stay.

How do you get anger from a post i have never been angry or selfish in my life and i get called that for trying to help myself, that doesn't help at all, i lost all hope 7 years ago and watched my life pass me by watching my friends getting laid and starting families and here i thought i was doing the right thing of trying to get my life on the right track and i have but i still feel like i have lost everything that i needed to have a full life and to that point i tried to end it once, and everyone that i thought was my family, friends, everyone i thought that i had mattered to, i dint, so please tell me why should i continue living, i already messed up a relationship with a girl that i wanted to marry and i cant get that many girls to look at me without disgust, and that's another reason why i don't go out and try to do other things cause people look at me like i don't belong there, yea maybe i don't and i don't care cause at the end i will choose the best decision for me and i wish it does work. Wish people would support my suicide attempts then i wouldn't have to watch their tears on their faces every time i failed.

oh thanks for sharing then.Why punish us by making us feel helpless. I tried to kill myself 10 days ago and I didn't want anyone to suffer, now your friends will? Nice. Can I just say I am glad I didn't die, so think about that. I hope you don't kill yourself but this is an internet site, we can only talk. We don't want you to die. My friend asked me to come on the crisis board and I'm effin gutted. I feel sick with fear. Please change your mind

You sound like you are tired in part to the injustice and immorality in the world. It often appears that the bad guy always wins, and I won't argue that odds are in their favor. That is exactly why we need more good guys on our side and I feel you are one. I also refuse to believe you are a dumb idiot until you at least prove it to me. Do you think you are not allowed to make mistakes? We are all born into imperfection and if others are making you feel stupid or calling you an idiot, they are the ones that need to look at themselves.There's more to your story that I think you should discuss here or with counsel. Please hang on.

you guys don't really understand, but you try. Things dont go the way they they're planned now why should i be alive expecting this in life. Its hard to not care when i do but i really always thought that if people wanted to kill themselves then they have the right to do so instead of going to the doctor and getting more messed up on pills cause i have seen this and i refuse to go to the doctor because of this. I know that statement sounded evil but you have to understand that people forget and move on and find replacements, so tell me why should i just live and watch everyone be happy when i help them and i will always be sad and depressed in my life, why cant they just find a replacement for me and everything will be fine. Tell me that i still matter now cause i sure as hell don't see it. Good guys finish last and i am happy with what i have just not happy to have it and live with it so when i die someone will take my place and gain everything from it. That is what i have always thought was the good thing to do, help others and not care for yourself so suicide is great choice for me.

And its hard to think that you belong when you try to kill yourself and you fail then everyone you know is telling you that you are a joke and just trying to have attention well that just wants to make me prove them wrong and i will eventual then they will say well i dint think he would actually do it. And from that i will have helped more people to not be horrible. Death teaches you to appreciate life, i guess that my death will teach others to do so. See you guys. Happy Thanksgiving and hope it was better than mine.

I'm really sorry that people in your life didn't take your suicide attempt seriously. To view you as a joke and your attempt as only attention seeking is cruel and insensitive. It sounds like the people around you aren't supportive, but things can change. You could have a totally different life a year from now things could be completely different. Why not try to make some major changes in your life without ending it? What makes you label yourself "dumbidiot" where did you get the message that that's who you are?

Have you not read any of the things i posted, i messed everything up in my life, no girlfriend= no wife in future, i have a job but someone can use that more than i can, cant do anything simple right like kill myself correctly, so yea i am pretty dumb and an idiot so why not get rid of people like me, What good is a nice heart when all it can be used for is to differentiate between a bad one? And then the bad one will be more accepted than a good one, i know that should not care but not caring will just bring more sorrow to my life and i have had enough sorrow and i don't want anymore.

I think that relationships are complicated, I'm not sure what happened with you and your gf, and it's usually not just one persons fault entirely when a relationship ends. Even you think the entire thing is your fault, you can live and learn, and could find another gf to eventually marry, etc. In my opinion a good heart means more then anything else in this world. And making mistakes does not equal someone being dumb or an idiot, it means you're human. I totally get being overwhelmed with the sorrow, but that can change, it's not permanent.

Well how do you know things will not be worse and not better?

I certainly don't see why you say that you have trouble getting girls to look at you, your picture doesn't lead me to believe that you are bad looking. I think you are very nice looking. Could you give us another name to call you so that we don't have to address you as 'dumbidiot'?
I hear and understand everything you've written in your posts. I too am suicidal and sort of have an obsession with it. I have gotten such good advice here and much support also.
What kind of cars are you interested in? Do you like the older cars? I really like the mustangs, in particular I like the fastback. So you say you work as a mechanic, do you like your job real well or not?
I'm glad you came to this site, the people here are so helpful, maybe if you allow it, they can help you too.