I know you don't know me but if you need to talk. I'll listen.

Please don't - my husband committed suicide and you don't realize what you will be doing to your kids. They will have to live with this for the rest of their lives. You have blessings - look up! Look around! I know things are hard - but it's not bigger than God - nothing is. Don't leave your kids! They need YOU!! No one else will do.

I am so very happy that you are giving life another chance!

By all means, stop making your ex look like a good person. Being honest, but subdued, can work wonders. Don't lie about him, yet don't go out of your way to make him look bad. From what you have said, he will do a good job of making himself look bad.

Your children will need something to hang onto, or they are likely to assume daddy left them because they were bad. Measured truth often works best. Give them enough to go on, but not so much that they have to deal with emotions they are not ready for just yet.

Once again, thank you for such good news!

Ohhh, I hope that you are still with us to read these comments. Suicide is not and will never be the answer. It doesn't end pain; it creates pain for those left behind. Like someone else said, taking that small step of opening up to someone is the start of better things. Much love to you.

Sorry, I am brand new to these online groups and didn't see your updated comment. I'm so very glad you have reconsidered, and I'm sorry for what you are dealing with. Definitely, it's a losing battle to try to protect those who refuse to make changes for themselves. I have faith you will work through this.

I know I may not be able to stop you, shit, I shouldn't even be telling you not to. Because In that way we are much alike. I think about death and had tried multiple times ( not recently have I tried to kill myself ). Honestly I'm hesitant, what If I survive ? What are the consequences then? I maybe a lot younger than you or a lot older but trust me , I have been through a lot of shit to realize what is wise and what isn't. Maybe you need to leave you kids with someone you trust ( if you do ) and escape, go to a hospital. Get the help you need. Because you do deserve it

Don't do it. Don't teach your children to have that as a solution. There's always tomorrow for you to get stronger. Praying for you.u

Find the place ...think about...never do it. I always keep a bottle of pills hidden.. it's my way out..but I know I could never do it. The few times I have actually seriously thought about it.. something happened to stop me. Hang in there...

I just don't know what to say.....but what about your kids? Kids do grow up with a strong bond with their mother. Anyways find a new plan one that's going to involve you kids being with you. And I'm not saying go with you kids cause I'm sure they wouldn't want to see you like that. I've personally had "plans" but I got stronger than I was and my friend ended up seeing me in the ER with both legs broken and my shoulder shattered.
Moral of the story is don't give up! There is a place for you and it's not worth the pain.

Are you feeling overwhelmed? I know that when I was 19, I had a girl, 12 months later I had a boy. Life was hard. I was definitely not mature enough to be married or having kids. After a few years, my husband became a meth cook and dealer which really made life crazy. I ended up moving in with my dad in another state. I was not mentally able to take care of myself much less two kids on my own. I decided to give up my rights to CPS. At that time, they had a program that would take the kids to a state approved family to take care of until I could get my act together. After a few months I decided to let the family adopt them that had been taking care of them. It turned out positively for both the kids and myself. They grew up in a great home with great parents that raised them better than I ever could have at that time. They are both now in their 30's and we communicate back and forth as I found them again after they turned 18. They both have great lives and great kids. I was able to find a job and get on my feet and grow up and take responsibility for myself. I am sure that the results are not always the same in every situation, but it may be something to think about.
Feeling overwhelmed always makes me severely depressed which brings on thoughts of suicide.
Life can get better. There are always places to go to get help. Make sure to make the right decision first as the wrong decision is permanent.

God Bless

This will affect your children for the rest of their lives. Perhaps you can use that as your reason to stay. And I'll bet you will find other reasons too......as life goes on....

There is a good news update:

https://www.dailystrength.org/group/depression/discussion/update-re-suicide-planning?page=1

She had a great conversation with a friend IRL who really lifted her spirits. Please go see that update, the link is above.

Closed for sake of preserving information flow, no violations when it comes to good news!!!!