I feel for you. I can imagine the pain and sadness that you're experiencing right now. Have you ever considered going to see a therapist? It may help you to cope and take care of yourself during this difficult time. This too shall pass:)

I was trying to find a group session but cant seem to find anything local. I'm going to speak to my doctor and see if he can prescribe me anything which might help

I'm sorry to hear about your divorce. I'm sure that is heartbreaking for you. Whether or not you are diagnosed with clinical depression will depend on how long you feel like this. Since you have experienced a devastating loss, it is normal to feel discouraged, confused or even hopeless for awhile. Divorce is one of the most stressful life events. There is life after divorce though and you never know: you may end up really happy in your new life eventually. The only advice I could give is to focus on what makes you happy and to focus on the people who love you and you love. This will remind you of the joys life can hold. Also, try to do something good for someone else. I know it's cliche, but it really is a serious mood booster to help someone. I wish you well!

Well if you're a relatively wholesome somebody who doesn't have a family history of mental illness and you are as you say experiencing this for the first time it will hurt and confuse you like a mofo but after some time, maybe a couple years even you will find your firing in this life again. And if and when you do, do me and everyone of us a favour and pat yourself on the back a few times because you should be proud to have made it through whatever this process is that may be called depression or grieve.

When I read your post I instantly thought of my brother who's wife died in a traffic accident while travelling to a destination in which she had intentions to cheat on him. For two years it nearly destroyed him. And then somehow, God knows how, he got over it and just got on with life again.

I have always and still do look up to him as a human being for no other reason than his resilience and ability to digest and handle what life throws at us.

I hope you find what you need to process this in your mind and heart as soon as possible so that you can go on living your life.

here is a DS group that may be of help

https://www.dailystrength.org/group/breakups-divorce

Thank you all for your advice, It feels good to talk about things and take advice, I usually just bottle things up and never talk about them

I can tell you from experience that bottling things up is not a good thing. I do the same thing mostly cause im forced to and it always ends up with me blowing up like a volcano and taking everything out on the wrong person. I wish you luck in your journey, if you would like to vent feel free to message me. Hugs to you

It's common to feel so lost from..well a loss! Find distraction and coping mechanisms that aren't self destructive, force yourself to leave the house and enjoy some time with loved ones. There are many people that can help you through this time. It's horrible what you're experiencing <3

You’re doing it, seeking help and answers to your feelings of loneliness, bitterness, and sadness over your loss! You are not alone Sam445 and there are professionals who can help: religious organizations, professional therapists, and doctors. I know it’s daunting and the idea of going to a therapist may feel weird, I did, but they helped me when I first realized I was depressed. I used to work in public safety and things just piled and piled up to the point where I was overwhelmed. I reluctantly took a friends advice and used my organizations benefits-several free sessions with a psychologist. I paid for a few sessions as well, but it helped me so much I’d need a book to tell you how great I felt.

Don’t get me wrong, it was a long road and it didn’t happen overnight, it will take time and purposeful effort to get out of this hole! It’s not impossible though and you owe it to yourself to start digging out because you are valuable and loved! I’d be happy to encourage you more and interested to know what you are going to do, just don’t give up, you’re only 31 and have so many more years to live.