Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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Road to Emotional Idenpendency

calico
calico

Hello Everyone,


I feel as if my depression has worsened  2019 and currently 2020. Especially these past few months I have been overthinking way too much about little arguments with my family and boyfriend. I feel as if I have become emotionally dependent. I feel as if I have no value, and I have developed a fear of being hurt, I live in constant fear that I will experience something traumatic that will leave to me emotionally and mentally scarred. Honestly, all I do is sit in my room half of the day and cry staring at the ceiling. I feel as if I'm drowning in a pool of water. I can't take scary scenarios out of my head. I try to preoccupy myself with things I like doing, but sometimes It doesn't help for long. This is my first time posting something. I don't think anyone around me can understand or help me. I want to learn how to become emotionally independent and value myself again. 

calico
calico
Sorry for the title I meant **Independency**
Secouya
Secouya
Hi Calico, I am sorry you are suffering. Do you have a therapist? They can help you identify what might be troubling you and to sort out your feelings. They can also teach you coping skills.

It might help you to journal your emotions and feelings and what triggers them. I am not a doctor but it sounds like you might have some anxiety. The key to helping anxiety is relaxation skills such as meditation, exercise or doing things you enjoy as distraction.

I can tell you as a survivor of multiple traumas that while memories of trauma are disturbing and take their toll, positives often emerge. For me that is helping other people through public safety and also through rehabilitation. I hope that you reach out for help and find peace in your life.
OLDBIKER
OLDBIKER
Depression, in itself, will cause you to isolate yourself in your room and cry a lot. This is one of the indicators of depression. You haven't stated if you are on any kind of medication. I dealt with this same type of behavior and I finally had to seek medical help. It took them a while to find out what worked best for me but, I am functioning well and have been for quite some time. Depression causes these thoughts of gloom and doom and with this shut-in order for the pandemic that is going on, just amplifies these feelings. Depression is a cycler and it comes and goes. Sometimes it may be a minor cycle or it may be a butt-kicker at times. If I were you, I would seek medical help whether it be with your doctor or with a therapist. I couldn't afford a therapist that's why I chose medication.
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