I am soo tired of being a heartbreaker sooo much that I feel like relationships are not meant for me, but of course I am human and humans are created for this very thing called love right? When I get into a relationship I tend to lose interest either rather quickly or within time. It causes me to really hate myself. I don't understand why I lose interest in everything! My boyfriend is such a good father to our son and hes a great person. yeah it was rushed Im only 23 and had our son at 22 but why do I still feel like this? I thought about breaking up with him but I can never get myself to do it. See I know feelings are still there for my boyfriend and the thing about this is if in event that I do breakup with him I know Id get very depressed and then Id continue to hate myself id be very messed up over it. but Im also very depressed staying with him because It just doesnt feel right but nothings ever feels right to me! Oh and I wouldn't even know where to begin if i ended up a single mom. I am in such a deep crisis. I need serious help. I'm just want complete happiness and I am definitely not there sexually for him at all.