so my wife(separated) and i texted just recently and long story short i told her i found out why for years id have inappropiate chats with women online and pictures and such, shed always ask me why did i do it, and id answer i dont know, the problem i feel is my (ED) or whatever you might call this, id always try to find ways to stimulate things, i always felt less than a man, even with my wife, we tried things to help, but i never link the things as being part of the same problem..... and as i opened up to my wife more than ever, about this, she said im using it as another fucking excuse even though i said it doesnt excuse anything i did, but i now see what my problem is and i need therapy for it.
i feel abandoned by her response
I am too sad today. I can't stop crying it is hard to speak and eat I just feel very deeply sad and can't be distracted from it it is just consuming me. I could beat myself up for feeling sorry for myself and being self indulgent but....... I am just too sad to bother. Something is lost and it is like a hole inside me right now.
Major venting session right now, you don't have to read it, I just desperately need to get it off my chest.I'm an 18 y/o female with brittle asthma. I had 7 hospitalisations in 2017, two of which were 4-day ICU stays. My current daily medication list is as follows: Prednisolone, symbicort, alvesco, montelukast, anti-histamines (to control allergy side), spiriva respimat and I use ventolin...