You're in a grieving process, which is VERY painful. We've all been there (relationship pain). No man is worth dying for. Please get help!

Sorry you feel bad hunxx
Hope you feel better dont do anything.=[

Hon, I think it's time you work on what's good for you and put this guy in your rear view mirror and never look back. You are too young to go thru this life in a daze, dreaming about what might have been instead of focusing on what could be. Enough! Pick your self up, gather up your dignity, open up a can of whoop ass, and go create a great world.

(BIG HUGS) Stay here and talk with us, sweetie. Keep talking until the pain subsides. It will, I promise. I know how much it hurts right now. I've been there too, many times. And I am older and blonde....it really doesn't seem to help.

On a gentler note, you are a great person with so many great qualities. Someday you will find someone who will treat you the way you should be treated. That day will come. Just be patient. In the meantime, go have fun.

i'm not- i'm a horrible person- who god is punishing and its ok- i will learn to accept being alone someday......

If I may be spiritual for a sec, God doesn't punish. We punish ourselves.

Ideas? Only one -- don't. ((HUGS))

RockN, stop telling yourself you're horrible and not worth anything. Yes, death is easier - for the moment. I'm neither yay or nay on reincarnation, but if that happens, you may come back worse off.

Life's toughest situations are for our growth. Of course this is not easy for you, but my suggestion is this: Stop feeling pity on yourself, stand up and think of all the wonderfulness inside you. Now don't you dare tell me there's nothing good inside, because I'll not play that! I'm not blonde either and I bet my face droops more than yours does. So!

Start loving yourself because you are worthy of that. You surely are in need of that first.

Peace hun!
Cerri

Hmmm, wanting suggestions for death. OK, I prescribe death by breathing. Breathe, many times a minute, for a very long time. After another 75 or 100 years you will die from it.

On a serious note, PLEASE LISTEN TO STEPHANIEANN! She is right! None of us guys are worth dying for. If he only goes for older blond women he is a shallow man, and it is his loss not yours.

Also listen to meandthebeast. She has walked part of the path you are on, and learned how to get off it. There is no such thing as "only one perfect person in the world". There are many out there. Don't obsess about him, and concentrate on you. Once you are happier with you, then you will be able to see some real men who appreciate you!

The good thing about death by breathing is that you get to change your mind at any point, and live by breathing!

I replied in PM sweetie, but for anyone thinking blonde is beautiful, my daughter dyed her blonde hair brown because all she was seen as was a 'beauty' and steriotyped. It's not what is on the outside that matters, work on the inside, that is what people will love about you {{hugs}}

thanks for all the support and caring - i really do appreciate it- but right now its just not sinking in- i have to live for today- cause i have to watch my nephews- but hey i don't watch them or work on the weekend...

Try giving yourself positive affirmations and remember to rely on God's guidance when things are not only bad, but good too!

tried the positive thinking and the prayer- god doesn't wanna listen to me- others have bigger problems..." i am but a teardrop in a sea of tears".....

here we go again... bye