I am shy but it's not just that.  I have a problem in generally with people.  I seem to have different values than those i am around.  people see me and treat me in a way (negative) that I don't see myself as.  I can't form friendships or relationships.  People anger and offend me very easily with what i preceive is their insensitivty and cruelty.  i work at a place where there are cliques and mean girls and all that.  usually i can brush it off but now that i am having so much family stress and physical problems it is really gettting to me.  i called in sick to day feeling just awful, weak, bad headache, nausea.  used my last sick day.  my job is in jeopardy.  i am thinking of sending my family a very firm and somewhat nasty email because they are causing me so much stress to the point i am afraid i won't be able to continue working and then i'll be out on the street.  i'm too tired and sick to call the suicide hotline. i think if i wasn't so scard to kill myself i would do it even if i don't believe in it becaue i cant stand the pain and injustice anymore.  it seems like there is no way out.  i am suffocating.  i need respect and love to live and i don't have it.  i have a counsellor but that is helping.  it never does.  they are usually more screwed up then their patients.